Fairy Tales -L Lawliet Love Story

Chapter 4

12/12/2006

(*Lilliana's P.O.V.*)

      Ever since a week ago me and Ryuzaki have been walking to the hotel together, holding hands. We talked about many things, our pasts, our families or friends and other stuff. Today we were in different classes, he told me he would wait for me. I am just going to the bathroom real quick and then I will see him again. After I finished doing my business, I went out to see Ryuzaki waiting for me looking in a notepad. I wonder what is in there? Whatever, I walk over to him, smile and start holding his hand. Sadly, the snow only lasted for a day, but it was special. We start walking towards the hotel, but he stops and looks at me. What was his problem, staring is kind of rude, but maybe he doesn't know that he doesn't get out much. I look at his face to see that it is showing a bit red, but it almost vanishes in a second. Why would he.......

    "Lilliana, I assume you know that I know you have feelings for me." Actually I didn't know that, am I that obvious? I wouldn't know I kind of never liked someone like I did for Ryuzaki. "There is a 89% chance that I do have feelings for you also. So to confirm my superstition, I would like to go eat some food together." He says, wait........ is he asking me out. For a minute I do not know how to react, my cold violet eyes are set on his darker ones. Should I say yes, I mean I haven't really know him for about two months, but he is one of the only people I like on this island, but I always could be more friendlier. Wait, what am I even saying? A few days ago you kept on telling yourself that you had feelings for him, and unlike other times with feelings of hatred, but the feeling of getting your stomach doing back-flips, the feeling of needing him by your side, he might not be perfect, like a prince, but he was a damn good frog. For all of my life I thought I wanted somebody perfect, but what I needed was the one who was perfect for me. I can't shake this feeling, I need to say I should.     "You mean you want to go on a date, right?" I say attempting to smile "If so, I would love to." He nods and does that amazing smile at me and we continue walking. I feel a flutter in my heart, I knew this had be a new start for me. This will be special, I am trying to hide my smile, but I cannot. It will be impossible for this moment. "When will we have this 'date'?" I turn over to see him looking of into the distance, he turns back to me. He always looks out there, what he looks at is something I am not so sure about.

      "I think we can just do it now," He says to me, while looking at his watch. Well, my friends back in England would tell me how streesed they were before a date. I didn't find this stressful at all, I mean they would also would get into a fancy dress, but most likely L will just dress in that same old shirt, so why should I get dressed up, I just see no point.

    "So does this mean the food is at the hotel?" I said, finally stopped smiling, it can make me look childish, people would say it is 'Cute' or 'Adorable', I don't like it. I mean they have no right to just say that out of the open.

    "Yes, unless you don't want to."

    "Well it matters, are the task force going to be there?" I said it would be awkward if they were, I am not saying I do not like them, but how do I say this without sounding really selfish. I can't think of a way, I just kinda wanted Ryuzaki to myself (Lol that sounded dirty).

    "Most likely not, it is there day off." He states, Oh I forgot that they always get off on Thursdays, I would usually come anyways for experience.

    "Oh right," I said, but I never got one thing out of my mind. Wouldn't eating food just be really boring, like maybe we could watch a movie after or go on a walk or something.

      "We could do something else if you feel the need to." God, how does he do that? I mean I am trying to think for myself, but he always knows what I am thinking, is this how he knew I liked him. Man, he has to show me how to do that. "Don't worry eventually I will teach you." He says with a small smile on his face. We approach the building and get into the elevator, we have moved to a different hotel, maybe they should somehow get a permanent place to stay. We walk up to the new room and he swipes his key and holds the door for me. We walk into the room and he gets onto the couch.

      "Well we are going to have to wait a little bit," He says as I sit down in the other chair. I hope one thing he doesn't know is that I sometimes worry about him. He never shows emotion, he has to feel somethings, I mean he wouldn't say the whole percent thing if he didn't have some feelings. I don't know why he would hide it, maybe I should ask him. I think I will he does always seem to have the answers.

    "Ryu?" I always used nicknames when I am trying to figured something out. "Why do you never show or tell how you feel, you do smile at times, but those can't be the only times you were happy. And I am sure there is times when you are upset. I would like to know if you are upset, but you never show me or tell me, it makes me worry........ I am just saying that I would really appreciate if you showed more emotion, it would be better for me and more importantly you. " I say looking at him, he had no reaction. I feel tears fill my tear ducts, but I try to hold them back, he sighs.

      "I think that is not a great idea. Emotions are a sign to most human weaknesses, people usually do the scariest things because there anger or depression gets the best of them. I also think in my situation is even worst, I should never show fear or confusion or it may seem like I am weak." I frown as he says this, I look away from him.

    "You know, I think a person who can show how they truly feel is amazing," I said before I put my hand on my cheek. I refuse to show any signs to give in. I shoot a quick glace at him he is staring of into the distance. I know that he is considering it, I just know he will. I am beginning to think this is how he thinks, by staring of at nothing. Well you learn something new everyday.

      "Ryuzaki, I got your food." Says Watari, he looks at me in concern, well at least I know he cares. He nods with a smile and stands up. I stand up also and start walking into the kitchen with him. Even before I walked into the room, I knew there would be a variety of desserts in there. When I get in, I proved myself correct, a pineapple cake with little pineapple gummies on the top, it was really cute. I chuckle a bit and take a seat next to L. He cuts us two pieces and gives me one.

      At first we sit in silence and just ate our cake. I was taking a long time to eat mine and I look to my right to see Ryuzaki. He has a little bit of frosting on his cheek, I was about to grab the napkin but then I thought of something. I stood up from my chair and kiss him on his cheek right where the frosting was. I gave him a giggle and I see his face go red. This is unusual, he would never show emotion..... Oh, he gave in. I smiled at that and continued to eat my cake, he was already finished and talked about his old school called, Wammy's house. I was listening the whole time when he talked about his old teacher, his room and his two successors. I was about done with my slice, just saving the little gummy for last. When I try to stab it with my plastic fork, it won't stay on. I kept trying to stab it, why was this a problem. After giving it a good stab, it flies off of the plate and hits Ryuzaki in the face. HA, serves you right, don't go between a girl and her feelings! He gives me a pouting face and gets a smirk on his face, what's that for? I think about this and then I see his finger sliding across my cheek spreading whipped cream on it.

     "Look, now we are even." He says with a smile and a little laugh. I laugh along, I understand that Ryuzaki doesn't always want to show what he thinks, but when he with me, I think he likes showing what he thinks. Like he wants to share his thoughts now. He has been isolated his whole life and I am helping him get out. I smile and he gets the whipped cream the same way I did. I felt my face heat up and he never loses his smile, i think it is adorable. We both throw away our paper plates and we decided to watch a movie, he didn't really have any movies, so we turned on one that was on the movie channel. He sits down and I jump on the couch. He turns the lights off and our only source was the city lights to the left. He still didn't lose he smile.

   "Hey, what are you so happy about?" I say and he turns to me.

    "Well, you are here." I feel my heart pounding and my face goes blank, my cheeks turn cherry red. I never really have people happy to be with them, most didn't like my company. I smile with him.

    "I really like how you smile naturally now." I casually give him a punch on his arm. We watched the movie, we had Watari bring us popcorn and thanked him. There was really funny parts that we laughed at together. Suddenly I feel him move from his normal crouching sitting position, and sat like a normal person would. Then, he puts his arms around me, I get really bashful about this. My stomach gets into a knot and put my head onto his shoulder. I can't really express how happy I am here right now, I can be in peace for now, not worry about my job, the case or my mother. I start feeling drowsy and I feel my eyes flutter close.