The Truth Hurts

The Truth Hurts [9]

After that, I have decided na umiwas na lang muna kay pare. Parang I still have trouble believing the fact na when everything seemed so right, something happens that nothing could ever change.

Parang it‟s a sign. Ewan koh. Hindi koh alam...masakit. He tried calling me and stuff pero umiiwas na lang akoh. Parang dati. Hindi koh pa talaga kaya eh. Parang dati, sinubsob koh ung sarili koh sa work. By day, im a very hard working doctor, lecturing in seminars and stuff, just to keep me occupied.

Si doc, as usual, patiently waiting for me. Isa pa un sa mga hindi talaga kaya ng konsensya koh. Kaya whenever I go home at night, and all alone, that‟s when I let it all out. I‟d cry silently and just let all my feelings out and cry myself to sleep.

For so many nights, it had become a routine for me. It was the only way for me to sleep, I have to cry. Pero dumating din ung time na I no more had tears to cry. As much as I wanted to cry, kasi feel like meron pang natitira sa loob koh, I can‟t kasi naubos na lahat. Wala na talaga.Then sa wakas mejo nakayanan koh na.

Bumalik na koh sa dati. I begun to enjoy things more. Naging fair na rin ung treatment koh with doc.Hindi koh na xa tine take for granted. Even he was a bit shocked with the changes pro natuwa naman xa eh! Wahehehe…

Tapos ngaun, kaya koh na rin kausapin si pare, I accept some of his calls now pro I‟m still not ready to face him, not muna siguro ngaun. I still have the bracelet. Hindi koh pa binabalik. Parang ayaw koh na ibalik eh.Kasi parang ewan koh, it‟s the only piece of him na I have. I don‟t have his heart na nga tapos pag binigay koh pa ung bracelet, I‟d have nothing.

Parang ewan koh, the bracelet gave me the will to move on, parang ganun. Di koh alam eh, mejo naguguluhan pa rin akoh ewan koh. Basta! Happy na koh ngaun.I‟d be contented with I have and not take anything for granted.

 I‟ve know learned how to be happy. Now, I can experience happiness once more in the arms of doc. We‟ve been doing great.And now, I think I have finally moved on. Kasi, I can now talk to pare like before. Hindi na koh umiiwas, I feel comfortable again.

Once again, I could say that my life was perfect. So un nga, ayos na lahat. I‟m okay, doc‟s okay, pare‟s okay and Twinx and the baby are also okay. I think it was a boy yata,ewan koh. Okay naman sila and dun sila sa hospital nagpapacheck-up, dun sa friends namin.

Everything is fine. One night, doc took me out to dinner. Kala koh usual date namin, ung hang out lang tapos watch lang ng movies and stuff like that. Kaya lang this time, where going out on an actual date.

As in sa labas.We haven‟t done for quite some time now kaya mejo nagulat akoh. And unlike before he asked me to dress formally, you know, like to wear a gown or something.Akoh naman, just said yes and dressed up. He just told me to meet him up sa lobby ng isang hotel. When I got there, he was already waiting dun sa lobby.

“kanina ka pa?! Sorry if I took too long.” Sabi koh sa kanya after I greeted him with a kiss on the cheek.

 “no naman, you‟re just in time.” Sabi nya. Tapos we walked na, kala koh dun kami eat sa restaurant dun sa hotel pro dumiretso kami sa elevator.

“san tau papunta?!” sabi koh na mejo nagpapanic na kasi nga naman baket kami dumiretso sa elevator instead dun sa resto.

“don‟t worry, I won‟t do anything to you. Just relax okay.” Sabi nya, obviously noticing na mejo nagpanic akoh. With what he said, hindi na nga akoh msyado nagpanic. When we got into the elevator, he pushed the very top button.I just looked at him curiously.

Nu kaya meron?! Baket kaya?! Ewan koh. When we got to top floor, eh di nag open ung door nung elevator tapos I just followed him.Tapos pagliko namin sa may corner, I was surprised with what I saw. It was one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen.