The Truth Hurts

The Truth Hurts [THE AWAITED PART]

Nung nasa limo na kami, I remembered about the letter. Kaya on our way there, I read the letter.It was from pare.

“Pare, Wow! Time does fly by.. Imagine you‟re getting married na.I remember the very first time I saw you. Right then and there I fell in love with you. But I never had the guts to tell you about what I truly feel for you. Kasi we clicked and naging best friends tayo. You were the perfect girl for me. No wonder marami umoporma sa‟yo. At least akoh, nakakalamang sa kanilang lahat kasi I was your best friend.Notice how I‟d always have something bad to say to your manliligaws.

Kainis kasi sila eh! But sometimes, I knock myself back to earth and remember that I am JUST your best friend and that‟s all we could ever be, I never left your side. For me, kuntento na koh maging P.A. moh at least I‟m the only man in your life. Prom time. I was so glad you asked me to be your date.

Many girls were approaching me and asking me but I just said that I wasn‟t going, well I really had no plans of going until you showed up on my door and asked me. Well, what can I do?! Makakahindi ba koh sayo?! That‟s when I decided to make my move. Kung alam moh lang kung gaano akoh nagprepare for the prom.

 I know nagtataka ka kung baket naging ganun ung proposal koh sa‟yo. I didn‟t want to lose our friendship kasi eh. Kasi I was thinking na if seryosong approach, baka sabihin moh hindi, eh di syempre magkakailangan na tayo nun, kaya I decided na ganun na lang, para if ever na sabihing mong hindi, it wouldn‟t really affect our relationship that much. Lamoh, you looked so beautiful that night. While we were dancing, for me, it was one perfect moment.

You were the princess, and I was your prince. And when you said yes, my heart jumped with gladness. It was one of the happiest moments of my life.I have loved you with all my heart. You made me feel complete.

Whenever I‟m with you I could be myself. I know you‟re wondering, if I had loved you that much, baket akoh bigla nakipagbreak sa‟yo. Iwas hurting na kasi.I don‟t know what you truly feel for me.

Masakit para sakin na after all we‟ve been through, you still saw me as a your bestfriend. Kasi baka lalo lang tayong masaktan kung pinagpatuloy natin yung relationship natin. Although it may seem na that night, that I wasn‟t affected at all, when I got home I felt numb. It was like there was a piece of me na nawala.

 It was the very first time I cried. I told myself that I need to move on. Kaya I started looking sa other girls. Then pumasok na sa scene si Twinx, she was nothing like you kaya nga I liked her, kasi she wouldn‟t remind me of you and I thought na it would help me on moving on. Pro you were the only one in my mind and in my heart.

But I kept on telling myself that I need to move on and that I could learn to love again. I tried. Believe me. But nung nalaman koh na may drummer boy ka na, lahat ng sakit bumalik. But I know na I need to remind myself, where I really stand sa buhay moh, kaya I just protected you as much as I could.

Nung naging kayo, dun koh na hindi kinaya ung pain kaya I‟ve decided, to you know, umiwas na lang and give you space. That was also the time I decided to forget about my feelings for you and start anew. But I always kept in touch with some of our friends to get some news about you para maka keep up naman akoh sa mga nangyayari sa buhay moh. I was so proud of you the day you got your PhD.

I told myself na it would be better na ganto na lang. you‟re there and I‟m here just looking at you. But you never left my heart. You were my inspiration in everything I do. Whenever I‟m with another girl, I‟d always think about you, and just imagined that it was you I was talking to. Eventually, I found someone like you kaya lang front lang pala nya yun. Kaya ayun. When I heard that you were at the alumni homecoming, I left my work kaagad and cancelled all my meetings for that night.