Jealous | Joe Sugg

Chapter 2

"This is Maya, my girlfriend, we met in South Africa" Caspar replied.

"Girlfriend?!" I say shocked

"Yes Joe, a girlfriend and soon to be wife." Caspar says whilst dropping his suitcase and wrapping his arm around Maya.

Then he then adds something really sarcastically which hurt me.

"A girlfriend which is something you can't get." He adds

Those last words hurt me a lot.

I can't believe Caspar would say that to me.

I knew that he was only joking with me but I took it seriously.

Me and Caspar alway joke around together and play pranks but I didn't find this very funny.

My eyes start to fill with tears and my hands become hot and clammy. The room becomes small like a prison cell as everything around me closes in.

I feel as if all the furniture in the room was glaring at me as my cheeks began to burn showing my embarrassment.

I must look like an idiot, stood by the door unable to reply to Caspar.

Instead of being a normal person who would congratulate their roommate who has just announced that he was getting married I stood frozen in my place staring at the floor.

I wish I have the strength to tell Caspar how I really feel but I can't seem to say anything at all.

I'm not like Caspar and all the other boys, I'm not normal.

No one knew who I really was.

I don't think that I was sure who I was either.

I planned to tell Caspar today, I've been planning for the last month while he was away but he went and found himself a girl.

He was getting married.

Every time I go out with my mates they all talk to the girls at the bar, especially Caspar and Oli.

They always flirt and dance with the girls while I sit watching them. Sometimes I use my phone to make myself look busy to avoid looking
awkward.

Every time a girl tries to talk to me I completely block them out; I'm no good at talking to girls.

Caspar and Oli always laugh at me and say I'm girl shy just because I can't flirt with girls.

I had enough of it all, it's been happening for far too long and I was fed up of these silly jokes.

It wasn't funny anymore.

If only they knew that I wasn't interested in girls.

If only they knew that I liked boys.

If only they knew that I was gay,

and that I fancied my roommate.

Caspar,

Caspar Lee.

I fancy Caspar Lee.

A/N
Sorry this chapter isn't very long I couldn't think of anything else to add.
So Joe Sugg is gay and has a crush on his roommate Caspar Lee.
How will he tell Caspar and what will he do about Maya?

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