you are mine for a minute
hers for a day
only for a moment
you look my way
falling for you is disastrous
it's a dagger to the heart
but those brief moments keep me breathing
though they aren't much
and then it's like i'm drowning
when you say "us"
because you mean you and her
there is no us
then the water makes
its way into my lungs
i'm drowning in a lake
of unwanted emotion
and you don't know
because i don't say
and you won't know
ever, not ever (i'm not
kidding. i really won't cave)
if he ever read this
he'd give me a look
and that would be it
a horribly ended book
it won't be a tale
like "really? me too"
most likely an epic fail
with a bruised heart - black and blue
this isn't poetic anymore
not even a bit
i just...wanted more
from someone who didn't
it's always like this
no matter what i do
it never changes
no matter who i choose
why is it unchanging?
this frozen, ice-cold season?
it's horrible and scarring
without any compassion
YOU ARE READING
of demons and love
Poesie(2014-2016) I closed my eyes because I didn't want to see someone I love, love everyone but me.
