Love like heaven

JUST REMEMBER

Being with you was hard. But regretting you was hardest.
                            -E.S.

It all started the first day I saw you. It was the first day of seventh class. It was the day when I fell down and everyone started laughing. It was the day when we first smiled. It was the day when you asked me if I was okay. It was the day when I sat next to you in English class. It was the day when we ate your donuts together.

It was the day when you told me when you told me that you are afraid of dark. It was the day when I told you I'm afraid of spiders.

It was the day when we walked together on the way to our bus. I remember that day, I remember each detail, I remember your faded jeans, I remember your shirt, I remember your dirty shoes, I remember your messed up hair. I remember our awkward conversation, I remember that fake smile we did infront of that girl so that she leaves us alone. I remember when you said that I looked good.

I remember the moment when I told you that I'm afraid to live, when I desired to die. I remember the reply, I remember the horror in your eyes, you shouted at me. I remember then you came back to me and said sorry and I promised you not to say that again and you smiled. I remember the memories of you, the memories of us.

And now the time, time has changed. I see you with her, everyday. I see you talking to her, everytime. I see you smiling at something, every second.
How did you forget us, I want to know. How did you forget our memories I want to know.
Nothing has changed about you, you are still that daring, over-protective, cute, amiable boy that I have know since I was twelve.

The thing which has changed is that you don't remember things now. You don't remember me now. All your popularity and new world has made you forget me. Maybe this is what happens always but I thought that you were different. I always thought that you would stay with me for ever.

Your world might be different, it might m
be beautiful, it might be bigger, it might be brighter, it might be better. But remember, our world was best, it was brightest, it was the most beautiful one, the perfect one. Things might be different but remember everyday is different.

I still want, I still need you. I still want those never ending conversations, I still want those endless jokes, I still want those weird dreams. I still want you. Our life is short but I think I'm ready to spend it with you, I'm ready to spend with us.

Just remember those days when we used sit in my room and pretended to study so that mom leaves us alone. And then those stupid talks of us, those stupid fights of us, those stupid thinking of us.

You told me that you will never leave me, but now you have broken your promise. How can that good boy change?

I remember the future that we thought we would have. I remember those nights when we couldn't stop laughing. I remember the day when you cuddled me and told me that I don't deserve to cry for that guy.

I remember that night when you woke up and came straight to my house and said that I was your best friend. I remember everyday of those years I spent with you.
I'll remember those day forever.

Sometimes I feel like slapping you hard and then I think I'll feel good. You are a monster but the boy I knew could never be a monster.

Can you please come back? Can you please be the one you were when I met you. Can you please love me again? Can you please be with me again? Can you remember us?

Just remember me, just remember us. Forever.