the story of krisoul

the beginning

As I started getting older my depression started taking over my whole life. Suicide drugs and cutting was my way to get from all the pain and when I was five I lost my everything, shoot my soul, I couldn't believe it Christopher my dad. He was gone from me just like that. That's when I realized anything can happen at any time. I mean shit and this society isn't any better either. When are they going to emancipate all of us? Cause we not free we never going to be free till they drop them caskets and leave them flower baskets. Yeah we free physically, but are we mentally and spiritually? Answer that for me. Then I finally met that pen and paper it started to become my best friend, but everything that I was going through was still there looking me right in my face. Being this depressed girl that hides her pain through her smile. The girl that doesn't know how to control her feelings when she's feeling some type of way about anything. The misunderstood one and it will always be like that. The one that gets in trouble with the law and do suicide when she feels lost in this world. The last I tried hanging my self was the time I found my god. Thinking my life is worth it I'm worth it this is me and this is my story that I would be sharing by my poems and raps when I was going through it. Being in rehab and in the hospital you will read many things about me, not all is my story it is some in the world that can relate to the pain and hurt.