The Ailing Heart

Chapter 3

My heart beat is now normal and the pain in my chest is almost gone. I pull my car into Trevor's driveway as I give him a call to inform that I'm here. I wait in my car while Trevor gets here.

"Bye mom. Love you". Trevor says as he closes the door behind him.

I feel as if someone just ripped my heart apart. The images of Ma flash again and tears start to form at the back of my eyes. The pain in my chest is back again and this time worse than before. I can't even breath properly anymore.

" Trevor". I hear his mom call him back and I'm glad. I don't want him to worry about me.

I can't stop the tears from flowing anymore. I cup my face with my hands and let the tears flow freely. I start choking on my sobs. I try to calm myself down and after a while I can get my pulse rate and breathing back to normal. But the pain in my chest is intact.

I grab a box of tissues from my bag and wipe my face. I'm glad the concealer is waterproof and still in place. I sit there waiting for him while I wait for this pain to disappear.

Trevor comes stumbling out of the door and almost tripping over his own feet. It's kinda funny to see him this way. He gets in and gives me a hug and settles on the passenger seat. We make our way to Jenny's house to pick her up and head to school.

We make it just in time to the class and get seated in the first row as that's the only place left.  The biology class has been a torture. Mr. Brown keeps talking about plants while I try to be awake. Soon as the class gets over, Mr. Brown rushes clumsily out the class.

"That was just so boring!" Trevor exclaims.

Jenny and Trevor are bickering as usual when I feel someone staring at me. I turn to my left to find Liam. His deep red eyes bore into my skin making it burn. I look away immediately and try to concentrate on the bickering again. I can still feel his eyes on me but I decide to ignore it. To my relief he soon grabs his stuff and gets out of the class. With that I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in. He really is weird.

"You're coming ?" Jenny asks.

"Umm.. What ?" I also, confused cause I wasn't paying attention at all.

"Are you coming with us for the next class?" She asks.

"Yeah". I say as she literally drags me down the hallway to the next class.

We reach to the class and get ourselves seated. The class starts with the discussion of particles in rotational motion, none of which I understand. I feel dyslexic with all the symbols and letters dancing around on the board. After forty minutes of sheer torture the class finally gets over.

The maths class gets over kinda early and so does lunch. And finally its time for literature. I know I'll have to come across Liam so I'm just hoping he doesn't act his usual weird self.

I rush to the class and get my usual seat in the first row. Liam enters the classroom and gets seated in the seat beside me. If he's got a problem with me then why does he not stay away from me ?

Today's discussion is about the play 'Macbeth' by William Shakespeare. Shakespeare has never really interested me but I don't have an option but to read it. The teacher continues with the playing asking a few questions in between.

I realise my lack of interest for the play is shared with Liam when he starts poking me with his pencil.

"What ?" I whisper to him.

"You don't seem to like Shakespeare much". He whispers back.

"He's just not my kind of a writer". I reply.

He doesn't say anything further and soon the class gets over. I grab my stuff and shove them in my bag.  I turn around to leave and find Liam looking at me. He gives me a small smile which I return,just for the sake of general courtesy.

The rest of the day passes quite slow but nothing eventful happens. I walk back to the locker with Jenny and Trevor and pick the rest of my books. We walk back to my car and Trevor says he wanna drive and I let him while I take the passenger seat.

Trevor drives faster than I do and soon we're are at Jenny's place. We say our goodbyes and she leaves. The drive to Trevor's place is spent in comfortable silence. After about 10 minutes drive we're already in his driveway.

We get out of the car and Trevor gives me a hug before he leaves. I get on to the drivers seat and drive home.

Dad's car is already in the driveway. I pull my car beside his and kill its ignition. I walk up to the door and fish the keys out of my pocket. I gently open the door and get in shutting it behind me.

I try to be as quite as possible but being as clumsy as I am, I hit the flower vase making it shatter on the floor. I flinch at the sound while dad comes rushing out.

"Baby are you alright ?" He says worried.

"Ya I'm fine. It's just the vase". I reply.

I start walking towards my room when I'm interrupted by my father again.

" Rose...Sweety I've got a gift for you". I stop mid step after what he just said.

"What did you just say ? You have no right to call me Rose. That's what only Mom had a right to call me. No one else. At least not you. So you better not call me that ever again". I say and rush upstairs without looking back.

I bang the door shut behind me. I drop my bag and plop on my bed. I can't help the fierce stream of tears flowing down my cheeks.

The day ended at the same note at which it began. He knows I'm still not over losing my mom and I never will. I don't know why does he have to hurt me very single time. He says he loves me but all he does is hurt me. He knows what exactly I've lost and how the loss has damaged me. But he still wouldn't stop.

No matter how hard he tries, things are never gonna get normal between us.