Sweet Sins

Shut inside with my demons

Its been a while since I've been staying with Torial, Ive barly left my room and stayed in a depressed state keeping my headphones on my head listening to music in hopes my deppression subsides.

Torial would leave food outside the room she has given me, im grateful shes leaving me in my own private little world but, I wish instead i died falling down that hole.

Lately she's noticed my love for music since im always listening to some kind of music to calm myself and shut out the outside world. She hasn't complained about me just lazly laying around my room either...witch again im grateful.

My deppression hasn't left me, and now I don't feel like eating or moving, in truth i havnt eaten in a couple of days.
I just sleep.
I'm withering away.

I hear knocking on the door and just stare at the ceiling "Child? I noticed you havn't came out of your room since you've started living here.. And I noticed you havn't been eating either.. Is there something troubling you?"

I just sigh and she must have heard

"Do you mind if I come in?"

I don't answer which she takes it as an okay to come in.

The room is still as the way it was when I got here, I havn't touched a thing.
Torial notices me laying apon the bed staring at the ceiling above me so she gentally sits on the edge of the bed, lookig at me with worry in her eyes.

She shouldn't be so worried, im just a nobody in this world, its not like I actually matter to anyone.
Its not like anyone would ever care about me or my wellbeing, so why bother wating your breath on me and worry for someone who actually matters in life.

"Whats the matter my child?"

I sigh and turn away from here and whisper "Nothing..."

"Well it doesn't look like nothing to me." She places a hand on my shoulder in a comforting way "You can trust me. So please. Tell me whats wrong."

At this I turn and look at her, he worry is plastered all over her face.
Stop worrying about me. I don't matter. I will never matter to anyone. Many have proven that to me already. So please...just let me die.

I look away "I'm just a little...depressed..."

She removes her hand from my shoulder and rubs my head "Do you miss being back on the surface?"

No. They all treat me like dirt. I'm worthless up there. No one cares that Im gone.

I take a deep breath before answering "No...I don't miss it..."

She seems a little confused but she quickly changes the expression to a soft smile "I found something today. Id like to show it to you..."

We both stand up and she leads the way out of the room and down the hall and starts to decend down the stairs. Ive never noticed the stairs since Ive been in the bedroom this whole time...its misterious.

On the way down Torial speaks " I didn't have anywhere to fit it in the house so I made some room down here...by the exit to the ruins.."

The exit to the ruins? There is an exit?

Reaching the end of the hall there is a big door, and next to it is a grand piano.
What is a piano doing here?

"I just happen to see it laying there...and I noticed your always listening to music so...i figured Id bring it home but...i didn't have anywhere to put it..."

I walked toward the instroment in awe, its been a while since ive played..

Torail stands behind me "Do you like it?"

I don't anwer instead I rub the keys with my fingers...
How in the world did she bring this here on her own?

I small smile creeps on my face as I sit down on the stool and begin to play a small tune.

(Music video above)

Torail seemed surprised by my musical ability but said nothing as I played.
Truth is I never had a lesson in my life, I just play. I guess you could say I let my soul pour out of my fingertips.

I close my eyes and just play, my deppression slowly fadding away.

I hear a slight gasp from Torail and im tempted to open my eyes, when I did I was surprised by what I saw, my hands where glowing a bright blue and it looked like they where consumed by fire.

That didn't stop my playing, ive played till the song was done, and when I stoped the strange flames went away...

That never happened before...what is it?

Torail was astonished "H-heather, how did you? A human?"

I turned and stared at her with confusion "I don't know..."

"Heather, what did you say you full name was?"

I looked down an shook my head "I don't have a last name, Im just Heather..."
Heather the Monster in a human shell...thats what everyone calls me...

She seemed to be in thought before speaking "When you came down here I sensed that your soul was week and heavy and human, but, when you played...it seemed like you soul bounced back to life and it changed..."

Im not sure what she means so I shrug it off like it was nothing "I just really enjoy playing is all...'

Getting up I hugged Torial "Thank you... Its what I needed to feel better..."

She smiled andd hugged me back.

"Torial?"

"Mmh?"

"You said that this was the exit right?"

"..."

"Does that mean there is more to the underground than just the ruins?"

"..."

She stays silent for what seems like a lifetime before answering "Yes child, there is more to the underground than just the ruins..."

We both seperate from our hug and she looks at me with sadness " If you want to...you can leave anytime...."

I'd like to leave someday and see what else is waiting to be explored.
Maybe if I'm lucky I'll finally be able to finished what i started in the first place when I came here...

A small smile sits on my face "I'm not going to leave now...just...when I feel like the time is right."

Torial smiles "Alright."