Prologue
Kirko
As Ashley bounced up and down on me, I pictured Nova's face on her. This shit was becoming too normal. This non-ending cycle needed to end. I let out a grunt, boosting this bitch self-esteem. Honestly, I don't know why I still fuck with her. I could never see myself wifing her. Let alone having kids with her. Maybe because I knew the one good thing I had is gone. I had no one to blame but myself.
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"Really?", Nova questioned. I'm guessing that was the only thing that could escape her lips. A smirk grew upon Ashley's face as she slowly bent down to pick up her clothes in front of me. I didn't refrain from looking either. Complete asshole, I know.
"Why you here?" I said in the meanest voice I could muster up.
"I came to talk to you." Nova was now looking down, hurt was written across her face. I could honestly careless. I wasn't here to throw a pity party or hear her sorry ass apologies. I wanted to hurt her like she hurt me. Or, so I thought.
"I'm preg", I didn't let her finish the sentence, before exploding. "Fuck you mean, why are you even here? You cheated on me." I yelled on the top of my lungs. These thin ass walls. I knew my nosey ass neighbors were listening by now. "I never chea" she started, and I cut her off once again. "Even if the baby is mine, I dont want shit to do with it." I was becoming annoyed with even talking about this subject. "Get an abortion!" With that she turned and left.
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Eventually I found out JoJo's bitch ass lied. He said he slept with Nova because she wouldn't sleep with him. Lame ass nigga, I know. I went to Nova's to apologize, but she wasn't there. I called her phone a million times and left a thousands messages, but I never got a reply. It was like she disappeared in thin air.
"Baby, you alright?" Ashley said.
I completely forgot where I was at, and what I was doing. Best ass in the world. *side eye* I got up rolling Ashley off of me onto the bed, and headed for the shower.
"I love you." she said. I remained quiet like I always did when she'd say it. I could never bring myself to say it back. I'd be living a lie.
I stepped in the shower sighing with Nova heavy on my mind.
Nova
I woke up like I did every morning, to the sound of my alarm booming throughout the room and Blake laying on me. Today was no different. I got up to cut off the alarm, I swiftly turned around to see if it woke Blake up. He hadn't moved an inch. He layed with his mouth cocked open slightly as cute little snores escaped his mouth. I admired his beauty. I'm a creep, I know. I did this every morning. He looked more and more like him everyday. A little piece of me died, whenever I thought of him growing up fatherless. That was Kirko's decision not mine.
He never even gave me a chance to explain.
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"Get an abortion!" Kirko said, his voice and his face showed no emotion.
I should be the one yelling, and irate. I just walking in on him fucking Ashley. The bitch that hated me for no reason. I thought about beating her up. Quite frankly, I was tired of beating her ass, and I'm sure she was tired of getting that ass beat. I started to piece everything together. At that moment is when I figured it out, she wanted him this whole time. After, those words left his mouth I didn't want him anymore. She could keep his sorry ass. I walked out of his room and ran down the stairs and ran home. I packed my shit, booked the first flight to New York, and changed my number. I didn't want him contacting me or anyone for that matter.
"Mommyyyy!!!" Blake dragged out, bringing me out of my thoughts. I just wonder does he think of me.
