Nova
Everything about today annoyed the hell out of me. I honestly wasn't trying to do shit today, but I really didn't have a choice. I was on my way to drop Blake off at daycare. Last night's events repeatedly played in my head as I drove. I didn't wait for an explanation because truthfully I'm not entitled to one. We are not committed to each other and he is not my man. He's simply my child's father nothing more, nothing less. I keep reminding myself of this. I guess, it hurts because I felt like we were working towards something. Shit, to think I actually believed this nigga grew up. I think I wanted to believed he changed because I did. I had to grow up fast because I became a mother, but he's still stuck in his ways. Truth be told if it was anybody else I would have handled it differently. Why her out of all the people in the world? I hated her as much as she hated me. The fact that he allowed her around my child is what aggravated me even more. Bitch came down talking bout "Baby, I need help." that shit was so on que. It's like she was waiting for me to arrive. Fuck her and him.
I pulled up in front of the daycare, hopped out and went to the back door to let Blake out. We treaded hand and hand into the brownstone building. Blake surprisingly took well to this whole daycare thing. I think I did more crying than him. He began to walk faster, causing me to look down. He had a big grin on his face. I guess he was excited to get there. We made it to his classroom where we were greeted my one of his teachers. He darted into the classroom, and went to play with the other kids. I hate this whole Blake growing up thing.
I pulled up to the store, hating today a little bit more. I opened up and made sure everything was fixed to my liking. I sat behind the register waiting for customer to enter. All the drama found its way back to my mind, consuming it with toxins. I huffed trying to shake them. I hated that I overthink everything. I'm the type of person that will remain stuck on something that occurred years ago. Simply, because I can't get over. It'll eat at me everyday. So, here I am wondering is there something I could've did different in the whole situation. I probably shouldn't have believed his advances. Finally customers entered the store causing me to escape my thoughts.
It was about 2 o'clock and I was still the only one working in the store. Bri had yet to come, nor did the bitch call. I hope she doesn't think she's getting paid for a job, she doesn't do. Brianna always did this when she got a man. She always forgot about her friends. Quite frankly, I think she's too old for all of that shit now. Hoe still didn't bring my car. I wasn't really tripping off that tho. I'm just mad she's being a horrible friend. I called her to vent last night and got hit with the "fuck you" button. Regardless, I still love her unconditionally.
After the week I had I considering going on vacation for about a week and a half. I just need to get away. Since I was the only worker here today I locked the front door before heading to my office to take a break. I sat down taking my phone out of my purse. I had a couple missed calls from the daycare causing me to panic slightly.
Blake's teacher explained that he was sick and she believed he had a fever, this really isn't my week. I couldn't leave the shop. I need the money. I called Bri and it rang straight to voicemail.
"Fuck!" I exclaimed. I beyond frustrated now. The only person left to call was Kirko. As much as I didn't want to do it, I had too. Huffing I dialed his number, He picked up on the second ring.
"Wassup'?" He questioned sounding skeptical.
"Look, Blake sick at daycare and I wanted to know could you pick him up. I'm at the shop." I waited as he took a long pause.
"Um, hello." I nearly yelled becoming irritated.
"Yeah, I can do it." He finally answered.
Good, I'll text you the address." I replied with relief.
