Nova
"Nova?" the voice questioned again.
Damn, could I catch a break?
I turned around to see Ms. Kate looking at me with eager eyes. Ms. Kate is Kirko's mom. She was all a girl could ask for. She was all I could ask for. Honestly, any mother figure would have been fine, after being in the orphanage for so long. She helped me when she didn't have to. I wasn't her responsibility. I wasn't anybody's responsibility for that matter, but she made me her responsibility. I was truly grateful for that. When I left I didn't have a chance to say goodbye to Ms. Kate, let alone anyone else. I would have ended up staying if I had seen her. She would have talked me into it. Everything probably would have turned out completely different. What if? I suddenly felt guilty about everything from leaving to not letting her know she has a grandson. I wasn't ready to let her know about Blake. I kind of felt like I unintentionally betrayed her. I don't know if I'd ever be ready to tell her about Blake, but what I did know was I couldn't do it right now.
"Ms. Kate" I said as she embraced me with a hug.
I was genuinely happy to see her, even thou the circumstances were fucked up.
"How have you been?" "Why didn't you call?" "Where did you leave to?" she managed to say. She deserved an explanation and I planned on giving it to her.
"Mommy" Blake yelled running up to me. I might as well have died right there. I could see Ms. Kate's eyes fixed on Blake and I. I turned around so she couldn't see my face. I couldn't even look at her. I stood like a deer in headlights. I was so unable to process everything that transpired. Everything I tried so hard to prevent was unfolding right in front of me.
"How old is he?" She said as she analyzed Blake. "Two." I mumbled. Her eyes grew wide after the word rolled out of my mouth. I knew she could see Blake's resemblance to Kirko. They were twins; a blind man could see it. I knew I was caught. This is why the past should stay in the past. Houston was the past, old news, and I shouldn't have came back.
"If you don't mind me asking, where's his father?" she said. I should have seen it coming. What could I say? "Oh, um your son is his father." I'm pretty sure Kirko thinks I got an abortion. I had nothing to say, so I just remained quiet. I secretly hoped I'd wake up, and this would all be a dream. Seconds later I was still sitting in an awkward silence, which made reality so much more real.
"Is Kirko his father?" she said finally breaking the silence.
I didn't even reply, I answered with a simple head nod.
"Listen, I'm not here to judge you or your decisions." That was one thing I loved about Ms. Kate, she never judged a soul. She would always tell me and Brianna you never know what people have going on in their life, and you judging them makes it ten times worst.
"That little boy is my grandson, and I want him to know me, know us." she said pointing to Blake, who had ran back to Brianna.
"Brianna, now I know you see me." Ms. Kate shouted. Brianna came charging over, stopping to bring Ms. Kate into a hug. I know Brianna missed her just as much as I did. Their conversation soon ended and all eyes were on me again.
"Come over tomorrow" she said. I nodded once again and with that she was gone.
I walked to the room with Blake and Brianna still shocked at what just occurred.
"Bitch, what just happened?" Brianna yelled.
Brianna
"Bitch, what just happened?" I asked Nova.
I couldn't believe Ms. Kate was just standing right in front of me. Who would have thought she'd still be working at this hotel. As much as I love her I never thought I'd see her again. Shit, I never thought I'd be back in Houston, and look where I'm at. Ms. Kate reminded me of my mom. She stepped in to fill that role, that was left empty when my parents died. She didn't have to but she wanted to. Nova and I weren't some charity case to her. She genuinely cared about us and our well being, unlike the bitch that dropped me off at the orphanage. We wouldn't be alive if she never stumbled upon in the alley. But that's another story.
"I don't even know." Nova resorted. I could tell her mind was all over the place. That was just part of our bond. I knew what she was thinking, and likewise. It never had to be stated.
"I knew I shouldn't have come back." she said. "Nova did you honestly think you could keep this secret forever?" I questioned. "It was bound to come out."
As much as I hated Kirko for what he did, I still believed he had a right to know. I know how it felt to not have parents. I never wanted Blake to feel that pain. Even if he did still have one parent, eventually Nova would have to explain everything to him, and that's where all the hurt layed. I know Nova wanted to tell Kirko, but she just didn't want the backlash of keeping Blake a secret. Plus, he voiced his opinion about not wanting a baby. What would you do?
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Nova:
I dreaded waking up this morning because I knew I had to face the past today. It was noon, and Bri and Blake were still sleeping. I decided to let them sleep and get myself together first. I dragged my body out of bed to the bathroom. I stepped into the shower as the warm water hit my body. This shower was close to heaven. As usual heaven didn't last for long. My thoughts forever hold me captive. I wasn't ready to see Kirko today. Ms. Kate I could deal with, but him I couldn't. I remember the hate that filled his eyes the last time we seen each other. I knew that hate still remained. He still held grudges with people from elementary school. This would be hate on top of hate.
I stepped out the shower wrapping a towel around my body. Entering the room to see Bri and Blake watching cartoons. I swear she was a big ass kid. I lotioned up and got dressed. The show was over so Bri went to get dressed and I began getting Blake ready. A half an hour later we were all ready to go.
Arriving at Ms. Kate's to say I was nervous would be an understatement. I felt my heart beating faster than usual. I knocked on the door, waiting for someone to open it. I secretly wish no one would open it. We could turn around and go on our merry way, and pretend none of this ever happen. The door swung open slapping me out of my thoughts. The aroma of a home cooked meal filled my nostrils. We walked in and to my surprise it was only Ms. Kate. I blew out a silent sigh of relief.
After being there for an hour Blake had already warmed up to Ms. Kate. I smiled to myself as they interacted together. Maybe this isn't that bad after all.
We ate dinner and I explained everything to her from beginning to end. I started at finded out I was pregnant and the big fight with Kirko to leaving Houston. I honestly missed Ms. Kate's advice and being able to tell her everything.
"I would have helped you" she said in a sincere tone. I knew she was telling the truth, but at that time I just honestly needed to get away.
It was now close to eight. I was ready to go, but Blake insisted on staying. Ms. Kate was fine with it, so I let him. How could I say no, Blake already loved her.
How would I get through tonight without my baby?
