The Boy with Bad Habits

Chapter 10

I didn't expect to be awakened by collapsing on to the floor.

After my shower and a lot of overthinking of my situation, I decided to take a long nap. In hopes of erasing the days events in my head, it was my last resort to sleep.

Only looking in the face of a very angry Nonna was not a pleasant sight. Nor was it good on the ears.

As I layed on the floor not feeling up to stand, Nonna paced around using profanities in Italian of whatever dirt had been stirred up by her.

"Ace Valentino, what on God's green earth is this?!"

It had been a mistake to just collapse on the couch for my slumber. Although I didn't know my consequence had been me forgetting to lock the door and her finding a cigarette in my room.

She looked at me in anger but also hurt. That's when I knew how badly it pained her, especially seeing the disappointment written on her face. The worst punishment of them all.

I couldn't respond, so her lecture continued. As I collected myself and took Willow's phone while placing it in my pocket sitting on the couch, she came over next to me.

"Ace.......I know what's happened these past months have been incredibly rough. But you need to know how you're handling all of this guilt and sadness is only hurting yourself."

Getting up off of the couch and getting directly in front of her I spoke.

"Do you think when a vase is broken it just automatically falls back into place? No. The day I get passed this seems a million years away Nonna. It will be the day that I can face her and tell her how much she's hurt me, how much she's wrecked my life, our life for the beginning of what I thought was going to be a good year. Only to experience something so cold it would last a lifetime. For the beginning of what I thought I could re-create with her, for the brokeness I've already dealt with at the very beginning of my life. Only I can't re-create something that was never there with the one person who took it all away."

Fury leaked through my veins and onto my words. I wanted to scream only refusing to show any sort of weakness for my own benefit.

Nonna just sat there with her head up at mine and tears in her eyes. I knew it disturbed her seeing me like that and made no efforts in hiding it from me.

"One day you will learn Ace. Love with certain people sometimes is a ship that sails but was only meant to sink in the first place."

She stood as my back was towards her, "If it isn't for our pasts, little things in our lives may have never happened to us. Chaos theory."

Putting a dainty hand on my shoulder I faced her again. "Do you think you would be here had someone not broken my heart and left me with a beautiful baby girl-your mother?"

And the whole moment was ruined, "She is no mother of mine, there is a difference between giving birth to child and raising one."

Anger filled her voice, "Don't you dare!"

As she said that, my hands reached for the cold knob to leave with a foot in the door.

"For the past seventeen years I've been living, you are the only mother I know Nonna," with that as my last words I left.

Walking away my mind disregarded what happened. Judging by the time frame of how long I napped, it had to have been around noon.

Bordem struck, and with my mind set out on Henrico, I was very eager to get the one thing I had wanted since arriving to Virginia.