Will you marry me?

Chapter 7 - Expert Advise

Chapter 7

October 24th 2013

I probably know by now that fear is the thing that holds us humans back from gaining what we perceive as unattainable. There are many things that us humans fear, namely family, society, the results of our actions etc. My fear was something so trivial yet so powerful. If you don't overcome it you usually regret it for life. However, if you get over it and look back upon it then it seems so inconsequential. My fear was the fear of rejection and it lasted about 2 weeks till I asked her out.

When she said yes, in a way that is, I was on cloud nine. I think in that moment I believed I could fly. All of this seemed unthinkable, yet it was real. Although on the outside I looked calm and happy, on the inside I was bursting with happiness and screaming my heart out.

And in all this happiness I made a promise to myself, never to fear rejection and I hoped that this will be a life defining moment for me, and in the years to come I would look back at this moment and reflect at how my life turned around.

Alright, enough philosophical stuff and more about my date tomorrow. So, first of all I needed to decide what I wanted to do with a girl on my first date with a girl. And for this I went to the only other girl in college that I could ask such questions. Summer was surprised in the beginning when I asked Emma out that day, then she was excited, happy and to me she looked a bit sad. I think she was sad because of the fact that Emma was finally growing up and she was proud in a way. Well she never told me why, anyway, I went to her asking a girls advice about dating asking what they liked, what I should buy her, where should I take her and what all I should talk about.

I found Summer in the college talking to some girls and Emma wasn't among those girls. I did get a bit worried about Emma, but just let it go. As soon as I called Summer and she looked towards me, I could see her eyes. Eyes that showed a bit of sadness, that sadness went away as fast as it appeared. I have to make a note to myself asking her about what was wrong with her, maybe its her parents and sister, I honestly don't know.

"What's up?" I said as I approached the group and then I heard a bit of murmuring.

"Nothing much, just discussing things that you probably aren't interested in."

'Try me."

"I don't think you would be interested in bikini."

"Baby, if you knew me any better you would have known that I am all about those bikinis." I said cheekily, or at least that's what I thought. I think after I said it realized that I sounded like a creep.

"You weird pervert. Get out of here. I think you really aren't fit for Emma or any girl. Anyway why are you here?" We laughed it out and then she asked me.

"I want to know many things about first dates, like where to take her, what to buy for her, what topic to talk about, you get the idea."

"Alright then lets go to somewhere more private than this courtyard."

We went to an empty class and Summer took out a marker and started writing on the board.

"So what do you think a girl would want on a first date?"

"I was thinking of buying her a necklace and a bouquet of roses. What do you think?"

"Nope, too weird for a first date. I think you should just go for the bouquet and not roses go for white lilies. I think she would like them better."

"Gee thanks!"

"Next question. What were you planning on wearing to the date?"

"Well I was thinking of a tuxedo, it seems classy."

"You are a noob aren't you? Pathetic. Casuals are the answer to your problem. Wear the jeans that you wore on the day you met us. And the Denim semi formal shirt you wore when we 1st practiced."

"Cool. By the way how do you know so much about my shirts and pants? Are you stalking me?"

"Stalking pfft! You wish Levine. I just have a good memory and notice things like this a lot."

"Yeah whatever, I still think you stalk me and in my defense I do have the hottest body in college. So, you never know ..."

"Are you trying to flirt with me?"

"What! Where did you get that idea from?"

"Anyway last question what to do and where to take her?"

"I was thinking to a movie and then to a dinner by the sea."

"That's the only perfect thing in your plan. However, make a note that Emma hates seafood. I think you should go to that new restaurant that has opened next to the beach, what was it called?"

"Salt."

"Yup, that."

"Thanks so much Summer, without you I don't know where I would be."

"Don't mention it. What are friends for." I still saw the sadness in her eyes when she said those words. However, it just didn't bother me much because I was so tensed about the date. I took out my iPhone and set a remainder that said –

ASK SUMMER ABOUT STUFF.

I messaged Emma and told her to be ready by 7. I went to the ATM took some money, bought a bouquet, purchased 2 tickets to a movie and called for a reservation at Salt. You see money was never a problem for me. I come from a quite rich family. However, I rarely mention it.

Anyway, I took a shower and whilst I was doing so I was continuously thinking about the date. It was like I was searching for ways for it to go wrong. I was also thinking about Emma and what her reactions would be and what we would talk about. I think that toilets are the best place to think. Whenever I take a bath hundreds of thoughts start to flood my mind.

I got out of the bathroom, and trimmed my beard. After doing that I put on my clothes and cologne. I looked at my watch and it showed 6:30. It was almost time, my first date was waiting for me. I got down took my BMW and drove towards something that I believed would be the beginning of something beautiful and romantic.