Thoughts I could never let out

Please dont take it personally

   

Song to listen to while reading- All time low Stacy Clarke

      Please don't take it personally.. I just don't date. I know how it goes, I know how I am, it has happened time after time again, with everyone who cares for a broken soul, like me, a little to much. You are going to fall for me so fucking hard & fast, despite every warning I threw your way. You will tell me you have never had feelings like this for someone before, that I am different, that you think I'm beautiful & have a unique mind made for museums, but you have yet to realize that artwork is not meant to be touched, but only admired. Maybe one day you will shout into the oblivion how much you love me, but every time you do, all I can say is "Don't fall for me" "Don't fall for me" over & over, not making an impact on you. You repeatedly ignore my whimpers of plead, & tell me "I can't help what I am feeling" & you do exactly what I warned you not to. But when you start to realize I never say the words "I love you" back I will fucking break you into a million pieces, & when you scream to me half dead, asking for me to let you try again, all I can reply with is "I don't even love myself
so how can I love you" standing on your already broken pieces. Everyone leaves, everyone will eventually break up, or separate, & I have always believed that, ever sense I was little. So why should I give it a try? It is impossible to last, so why not get it done & over with now? This is not a fairytale, it is real life & in this world I will break you, oh I promise I will, I won't even mean to I swear, and god knows I don't want to hurt you but I just know what will happen. So,'don't take it personally.. I just don't date. I know what I am capable of & that alone is a scary fact.