My Brother Best Friend

Awkward

I can't believe I kissed Neveah, and we fucked. It felt good but bad at the same time. I don't know what came over me. I just had to get a taste of those juicy lips, her hazel eyes had a nigga in a daze.  

I know that's my best friend sister and all and he told me to watch her but I can't help who I love. Yes I said, I'm in love with her and has been since her freshman year. Didn't happen because I found out she was my best friend sister so I couldn't even do it. This is gone be awkward as hell. I hope this doesn't change things. 

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I was on my way to Neveah house to apologize for what happened last night. Even though I want to take things further, I just can't do that to my best friend. 

I rang the door bell and knocked on the door a few times and no answer. I wonder where the hell she at. I was about to use my spare key when I heard a car pulling up. I turned to see Neveah getting out the car. She looked like she been going through some shit. Even though she looked a hot mess, she still manage to pull it off. She had on some black sunglasses but there was no sun out.  

She walked right pass me and open the door. She didn't say at word to me.  

"You okay veah?" I asked. She still didn't say nothing. I followed her to the kitchen. She went to the fridge to get a bottle of water and walked right up and up the steps. What the fuck is wrong with her? I followed to her room and say on the edge of the bed and she sat on the other side. 

"What's wrong veah?" I asked hoping to get a answer. 

"Nothing" she answered. I knew she was lying, so I went to the other side where she was and kneeled down in front of her. 

"I won't leave this room until you tell me what's wrong?" I said and she stay silent. I took off her sunglasses and she was crying, I knew it. 

"I miss him Cor" she finally said. I knew who she was talking about her brother. 

"I miss him too, but you know he wouldn't want you crying, so stop it" I said sitting beside her and hugging her. 

"I know" she wiped her tears and chuckled "Thanks for being here Cor" she added and smiled. I smiled back and looked in those hazel eyes that had me in a daze. I stood up quick with my back against her. I couldn't go there again. 

"What's wrong Cor?" She asked rubbing my back. I turned to move her hands. 

"I can't do this with you lil bit" I choked out. 

" What do you mean?" She said moving back from me. 

"Last night was a mistake, your brother was an still is my best friend, I don't want to hurt him by going behind his back and fuck with you" I said all in one. I looked at her for a response and she looked hurt, shocked, pissed all in one. 

"What about my feelings Corey" she said breaking down. Damn I didn't know how she felt, I didn't want to hurt her too. 

"I'm sorry Veah, I didn't mean to hurt you" I said trying to grab her but she pushed me off her. 

"NO, I care for you more than you know. I been having feelings for you since my 10th grade, but you had all the hoes so I left it alone. And now it's finally my chance to be with you and you don't feel the same way, I feel so stupid" she cried out. Now I feel really bad. Fuck. 

"But your brother is my best, I can't- 

"YOU TOOK MY V-CARD AND NOW YOU SAY IT WAS A MISTAKE FUCK YOU COREY. MY BROTHER IS DIED COREY, HE IS NOT HERE. I LOVE MY BROTHER AND MY FATHER, but damn shouldn't I be able to be happy too?" She said and I don't have shit to say. She rolled her eyes and stormed out. I heard the door slam and her car pull off. 

She was a Virgin. Damn, what the fuck did I do? 

~Corey~