My Brother Best Friend

Just can't do it

No words can describe how I feel right now. I'm hurt,angry, played,and sick all I one. I never been so hurt in my life, well except when my dad and brother died.

How could Corey do this to me? Out of all people I would think he would be the one to hurt me. Maybe I should just apologize to him. I love him too much it's ridiculous. Ugh, I hate to be the one to admit I was wrong.

I guess it's time to grow up. I threw on some sweats, a sweater, an my Jordan's. I threw my hair in a sloppy bun and headed to my door. When I open the door he was standing there.

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Kitta

Last night was crazy as fuck. Neveah messed ol girl up, and she beat Corey ass. I hope they work everything out.

Anyway as for me, I was at the crib with my boo Kev. We fuck around and I like him a lot, but there is only one problem...... He's engaged. I know what y'all thinking, I'm no home werker. I know I shouldn't be doing this but shit it's hard. I told myself never to be that girl but I love him. Plus I had him first, we were dating when he cheated on me, got the bitch knocked up and purposed, now she's 7 months. I was hurt but shit I gotta move on. I have to tell him sooner or later that I can't do this no more.

Nobody knows we mess around, even my best friend Neveah doesn't know, all she does know is that we flirt a lot.

I walked in the kitchen to see Kev finishing up cooking a cheesy, chicken melt. I just watched him.

"Hey beautiful" he said sexy kissing me. I just smiled and sat at the table. A few mins later he joined me, with two plates and two bottles of jucie. He cut the sandwich in half and have it to me on a plate. I took a bit and it was really good. He can cook his ass off. He is so sweet, see shit like this is why I want to say just fuck it and be with him, but I can't because I wouldn't want this happening to me.

"I need to talk to you" I said

"Wassup ma?" He asked whipping his mouth from the mayo from the sandwich.

"I know I love you and it's really hard for me to even think about this but I can't do this no more" I said

"Do what?" He said taking a sip from his jucie.

"I can't do us no more" I said playing with my fingers. "Your engaged with a child on the way... Did you forget that?" I added

"So you just gone break up with me?" He said a little angry

"As much as I don't want to, I have to. I love you and I don't want to lose you but, if I can't have all of you then I don't want you at all" I said on the verge of tears.

"I love you Kitta, don't do this to me" he said hiding my hand. I looked in his eyes and moved my hand from his, I got to be strong.

"No I can't. You got a whole bitch at home with a child, I'm not gone be a side line bitch while you playing house and shit. How you think that make me feel? She pregnant so I can't make you choose, just go be with her" I said and walked in my room closing the door.

I was crying my little heart out. I heard my front door close and I knew he left. It's hard for me to break up with him but I'm saving my self from a heartache.

I may seem tough when I'm out and about but I got feelings too, no women wants to feel what I want to feel. Hopefully I feel better later.