What His Heart Wants

Chapter 7: A Mutual Friendship

Shay~

I rolled over and groaned at my blaring alarm, my eyes felt swollen from crying last night. It was nice being able to see Cash, but all the memories he brought with him were not so pleasant. If anything it only made the pain of losing him worse, but it was time to put my big girl panties on and suck it up. I would start today with a clean slate, I was bound and determined that what had happened in the kitchen last night would not get to me. Or at least I wouldn't let him see that it had.

I put my robe over my lime green silk pajamas, and opened the door to my bedroom tiptoeing as quietly as possible I made my way to the kitchen to start my morning coffee. "Oh good your up.'' Came Cash's smooth voice, his green eyes met mine from across the room. I could see the questions, and what seemed to be concern shining from them. He sipped a cup of coffee from one of my flowered mugs, and had grabbed a mug and poured me a cup before I could say or do anything.

"Thanks." I mumbled, sipping the strong hot liquid. My brain can't process anything until I've had at least one cup, "What are you doing up so early?'' I asked, giving him a suspicious look from over my mug. He grinned and shrugged, raising his cup to those full lips that had kissed me just last night. I had to look away, just because I was still hurt over things didn't mean I wasn't a female with eyes. He was still the most handsome man I'd ever met, but he was also a rock star that I knew nothing about anymore.

"I thought I might shadow you at school today, you know get a feel for the teens that I'll be preforming for in a few weeks.'' I nearly chocked on my coffee at his words.

"I'm sure you have other things that you need to be doing besides following all the kids around all day.'' He gave me an amused look, "Besides, I would have to get approval from Principle Reeves and I highly doubt she would go for that.'' I added, tossing down the rest of my coffee. He raised his eyebrows at me, and gave me his half cocky grin.

"Really?'' He asked, I nodded reaching for the coffee pot. "Cause I talked to her this morning and she seemed tickled pink about the idea." My hand shook slightly, making me spill the coffee on my counter. I put the pot back and reached for the dish towel, just as Cash reached for it. His warm hand sent chills up my arm, making me shake that much harder. "Are you ok?" He asked, reaching for my other hand, I looked down at his hands and pulled mine away hastily.

"I'm fine.'' I replied, stepping around him, and walking towards my bedroom. I had to get away from him, I refused to let him see the affect his touch and presence had on me. After a long hot shower, and some calming down I was ready to face the day come what may.

When I walked into the living room an hour later, he was pacing the floors. He looked up and gave me a weary smile, "I think I'll just stay here today, I never wanted to make you feel uncomfortable or anything.'' I sighed, reaching for my bags. There comes a time in everyone's adult life when they have the choice to suck it up and face it like an adult, or run like a kid. And no matter how much I desperately wanted to do the latter, I knew I had to be an adult about it.

"Cash we need to talk. From the time you came back into town all I could think of was how hurt I was at you. I'm letting that go as of today, I've acted pretty childish since the moment you got to town. So for that I'm sorry, but from here on out I choose to be your friend that is if you want to be. As for the kissing and touching, please don't. Respect me enough to be my friend, but please don't take advantage of that.'' There it was said, I held my breath while I watched his lovely face and the conflicting emotions spread over his handsome features.

"I wish I could apologize for that Shay, but I can't. I am selfish, but I will respect you and be your friend only.'' He gave me a resigned look. I nodded, and started for the door.