Fate - Blessings and Curses

Chapter 1 - I am Renzu

July 1st, 2056 marks the day that my life was changed completely. I don't even know where to begin. So let me just start from the beginning.

It is a quiet, cold, rainy day. I sit outside of my house on the back step silently writing inside of my journal. It is the only form of comfort to me as I deal with personal problems in my head and in high school as well. I am usually bullied a lot, it has caused a lot of mental problems over the time. However recently transferring schools has put me in a sort of peace, and I feel as if I can start school on a better footing this time.

This is somewhat a way to make it official.

"My name is Renzu Hatigashi, I'm 16 years old and today is my birthday. The only thing that's bad about this is i have to spend it inside this stuck up godforsaken high school. Not very many likes me, and few care about me here. So why should i waste my time trying to make friends or talk to anyone at all? My grades are above average and i'm not involved in anything yet. I haven't thought about college yet or what i wanna do with my life after high school. I'm sorta lost when it comes to questions about the future. I just don't know so I usually avoid the kind of people that like to ask.
My hobbies are art, reading, music, and writing poetry. I can be very athletic but I choose not to be since I be busy with watching over my little sister Kuzu while my parents are away. After school I decided on spending my birthday today with my little sister Kuzu. My parents are away so it's only me and her for now. My Family thinks that i need to start taking life more seriously, and start trying new things besides the next video game.

I try to ignore them but i somewhat agree with them. They want me to show more effort in my school but i just think, why should I show effort to people in my school who doesn't care whether you live or die at all. What's the point? Where is the motivation? I don't have it for people who don't have it for me and that's how its been so far.

My parents trained me in self defense, but I really haven't been putting much time into that due to laziness. I hope i will be back on my feet in a little bit though. However my current state of mind will eventually lead to me killing myself at some point if I continue. So from here on out I am turning over a new leaf.

My new goal in life is to do one thing. Live every day better than the last. Although I haven't really been chasing after my goals or dreams for a while, I have a feeling something will happen that will make me do so. This is the last day of a old past, and the start of a new beginning. Hello world, I am Renzu."

I closed the book and walked off the steps to my garbage can. I placed my journal inside and lit it on fire. I took a deep breath as the flames swallowed the book full, I some what felt a sense of relief as I watched all of my past thoughts, sad poems, and fake suicide letters all went to ash. I slowly begin to feel a new flame light inside of me.

"Today is a new day." I say to myself as I brush myself off, and go