My second mother...

Chapter 1 Broken Hearted

When I was 8 years old, I was told I was adopted. I don't really know how to accept it. Thinking that the person that gave birth to me is somewhere else in the world. The though never failed to enter my mind why my own mother would just give me to a stranger. I got asked was I okay with being adopted or not. Well of course I said yes I'm fine with it. But was I really ??? No. I mean I love my adoptive family but how would you feel if you wasn't with your real family?? Hmm?? Every time we went to the store I would always look around thinking I could walk right passed my mom and not know it. It went on looking for her for about 3 more years. Then when I was about to give up hope something caught my attention..... I was at Walmart with my mom one day when this girl walks up to me and asks if my name is Olivia.. Slowly I said yes.. She turns to my adoptive mom and says do you know my mom Lisa and my mom of course lied and said no. My mom left the cart filled with groceries right there and we ran out of the store because she was afraid my birth mom Lisa was with Haley and they were going to kidnapp me. When we got to our car and pulled out and was on our way home, we got followed by this car all the way to my house. At the time I was 12 I didn't know who my birth mom was or what her name was at liest. My mom acted nervous And my adoptive dad asked her what was Wrong she said there was a girl at the store... My dad said ok a girl big deal..? My mom replied it was Haley Jim Olivia's sister.. At that time I felt so stupid and overwhelmed I stood and looked and talked to my own sister and had no idea who she was.. And at that time I got told my biological mothers full name.. And of course I was curious about what she looked like if she was old or young did I look like her and just the question of why I got given up for adoption was on my mind. Later that day I walked up to my adoptive mom and said why.. She said why what Olivia I said why did she give me up.. She replied she had your sister at 15 and you two years later she had tried to have an abortion with you but it was to late in the pregnancy at that point my heart was smashed into a million pieces.. My own mother wanted to kill me?? Olivia my mom said at the hospital she didnt even want to hold you when you were born we asked her I she wanted to hold you and her reply was she's not my baby she's yours.. I don't want contact with her don't even tell her my name or anything about me I want pictures of her but never tell her who I am.. The next day when I came home from school I got on my moms Facebook and looked her page up and found her and I was looking through her pictures and crying. Then I going my sisters page and decided to message her It all started by me simply saying hi..........