love and pain

chapter three

i know im addina a new chapter so soon but hey its summer and with nun else to do today i sat down and put some ideas together . Tell me what yourll think and hey i take all kinds of critism ... i apologize in advance for my spelling errors ( lol ) and i hope yourll like it . there might be a twist in the story now . hehe

Selena

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* arlina pov *

'' peep peep '' i heard as i walked out of the schools main entrance . It was orlandos SUV . I made my way to the jeep feeling scared . I didnt want to think about what he had planned for tonight . Today is monday so i most likely had no costumers except orlando . I openned the door and put my foot on the step thingy of the jeep to boost me up since the jeep was so high .

'' hello sweetness '' he said in a soft , deep voice .

'' hi honey '' i replied in a seductive voice . I didnt want to but i didnt want a beating right in front of the school . He leaned over and kissed me gently before driving off.  I placed my school bag in the back seat and put my seat belt on .

'' orlando , will you get angry if i ask you something ? ''

'' no my love , ask '' he said glancing at me and then at the road .

'' do you think that we could go to the beach some time , just us '' i said softly .  I know what all of you are thinking . Im a slut , i hate this man but im asking him to go to the beach with me . Well its actually a place that brings back nice memorys . Memorys of my real mother and before crystals accident and before orlando turned into a beast . Its a place that makes me feel strong and like every thing is okay . The beach makes me feel good and confident . I couldnt ask him permission for me to go alone or ask him to bring crystal because he would get angry and say no . Although orlando was scary he rewarded me for grades or when i made alot of cash or when i made him feel ' good ' .

'' Sure my love we can go tonight if you want . Crystal will be asleep early today .. ill drug her so we can go out and have some fun . Just us ... '' he said sweetly . Yes he drugs Crystal . When he wants to sleep with me , or go out or is simply tired of her nagging he gives her some kind of pill disolved in juice or whatever he could think of. I dont think its harmful , i think it just makes her sleep but with Orlando you can never tell ...

'' Well umm honey i was hoping that we could just talk about us tonight . '' i started looking at him from the corner of my eyes to see if he was angry but he wasent . I wanted to talk about us so i could think , instead of being ravaged on a beach . He loved sex so i had to find away to avoid sex , tonight . '' I wanted to talk about our future together . I just wanted us to talk about our life together and i wanted to be alone with you . Just us , somewhere romantic , just alone and to be in your arms without being scared that - '' i stopped to make sure he was paying attention .

'' Scared of what princess ? ''

I was relieved . All those lies were not in vain . '' Scared that crystal would come in on us , and if she found out about us you would  abandon me - '' he cut me off and that when i realised we were in hell or home as he called it .

'' I will never abandon you - i know what you think arlina , im a beast that beats and takes advantage of you . I admit im a beast and i need help , but theres things about me you dont know . You dont know how i really feel about you , or how much it breaks my heart knowing that i dont have any kids . I want a son so badly Arlina but i cant have one all because crystal is a Bitch ! She got pregnant for me once , i begged her to keep the baby but she didnt , she aborted it .she lost her womb in the process . It was to late , she was already my wife '' he said half in tears . I knew he wasent lieing but the part about loving me i wasent so sure about . when Orlando lied he scratched his arm , thats something only I knew . But right now he wasent scratching any where . But he beat me so much i didnt trust him enough to believe he ' loved ' me .