Le Garritsen

'High' Drama

Martijn's POV

"Martijn! Martijn!" the disembodied voice calls out to me. It won't stop and this pain is going to continue forever. I try to push away the rough, calloused hands clawing at me. Suddenly, somebody grabs my hands and pins me down.

"Martijn!Martijn!"the voice slowly morphs into Julian's.

"Julian, what happened?"I ask him. My entire body was shaking, like I had caught a really bad cold. All I wanted was to crawl into the pillow fort Mama used to make me when I was small. I know, I'm sixteen years old and I wanna climb into a pillow fort? But that fort was my safe place when I was small and the seniors used to bully me and I couldn't tell anyone because that would just make them bully me more, and "Martijn! Are you listening to me?"Julian asks shaking me.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what happened."I reply. "I came back after Ms.Holden's class and I sat down and.... I don't remember anything after that! "

"You still haven't forgotten about that night,have you?"Julian asks.

"I guess not. As much as I try to, I just can't!"I say.

"Have you tried to talk to anyone about it?"Julian asks.

"D'you really think that's something I would talk to anyone about?"I ask in a steely voice.

"I get it,"Julian says in a comforting voice."So how's that girl doing?"

"Oh, her,"I say. Or try to. My voice catches in my throat and comes out as a high pitched squeak.

"Whoa, what's up with your voice mate?"Julian says, laughing."Wait, you like her?Oh my god, do not tell me you like her! Have you seen her face? What do you see in her? And did you see her hand? There were all these emo scars, like shit, that girl is messed up dude..."

"SHUT UP!YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HER!"I scream."You don't know what she's been through, how can you be so judgmental?"

I start walking away from Julian and soon I start sprinting. As I reach the exit, I almost bump into Ms.Holden in my hurry.

"Martijn, are you alright? You're looking a little flustered!"Ms.Holden says in her kind voice.

"I-I'm alright ma'am.Just a little tired."I say.

"You were looking a little distracted in my class."she says."You know, if you need to talk, about anything, I'm right here. You can come to me anytime, ok?"

"Dankjewel, but I'm fine!" I say and get out of there.

For a moment, I had actually considered talking to Ms.Holden about everything. About how that night had been coming back to torture me every night and how affected I was by that girl and about my sudden urge to ---

Yes, I was here. The place my father used to take me when I was small. I still come here sometimes, when I need to sort everything out. Except right now, what I needed was to get away from everything.

I took a pinch of the white powder out of the packet I had found in Elena's coat. Julian didn't have to tell me just how messed up Elena was, I already knew. She was the daughter of Ramon Leicester, one of the most wanted drug lords in New York. Which is why it was kind of obvious that she'd have some kind of drug on her. And that was exactly what I needed right now. Something to get away from the persistently annoying world and everything in it. I needed to escape into my own world, something which I used to be able to do with my music. But after I started getting the nightmares, I just can't seem to do that anymore.

This will be the first and the last time, I promise myself.

I held the packet up to my nose and started to sniff.