I woke up in a cold sweat,my shirt was completely soaked and glued to my back. I could see streaks of sunlight escaping through the small gap in between my curtains. As the light poured through I was going over my nightmare in my mind. When he stabbed me,it felt so real,it felt like every piece of me was shattering. As if he was ripping through my soul.
I was now lying on my back,playing with my hair still analysing every inch of my nightmare. Maybe it was a sign telling me that I should forget about all these feelings I think I have for him. It had been weeks since our last incident and it had gone back to the way it was before. He hadn't even attempted to contact me, not even a single text message. I really just want to know where I stand with him. Does he really want me or did he just want to play with me for a while to satisfy the hunger within him that was left unfed.
Without him, each day, each hour, each second seemed to blend into one. As I lay there on my bed, time just seemed to be moving at an unnaturally slow speed. As I began to reminisce over all of my encounters with my uncle I began to feel dirty. I felt like a little girl who was so desperate for attention she would even throw herself at her own uncle. What is wrong with me? do I have to go as far as seducing my aunt's husband just to get attention? all this just because I feel lonely? Was it even love that I felt for him? Or was he just another guy I could use to try and fill the void in my heart.
As more of these thoughts started to fill my head one by one, I suddenly began to realise the seriousness of the situation. There was more then one thing wrong with this, apart from the obvious fact that he is my uncle aside. There were a million other things that made our 'relationship' plain wrong on more than one level. There were so many things that made our romance doomed from the start!
Number one: like I have said before he is my uncle, he may not be my blood related uncle but he is my uncle none the less.
Number two: he is also my teacher which means that if anybody ever found out about 'us' if there is even an us, then he would get arrested.
Number three: he is more than double my age, I personally think that age is nothing more than a number but I am worried about what everyone else would think, would people see him as a pervert? Would they think that he tried to take advantage of me?
Number four: what would it do to my family if they found out? would they call the police? I can imagine that they would want him as far away from me as possible.
There was one more important piece of information that I was forgetting. This whole situation started because of me, I was the catalyst in all of these events. If I hadn't kissed him in the first place none of this would have happened. If I just managed to suppress all of these feelings that I have for him, then maybe I would have been able to peacefully finish high school and attend college next fall. Where I wouldn't have to encounter Jake again,and I could forget about how I feel right now.
There was only one thing I could do right now to make this whole thing go away. To make everything better,to go back to how it used to be..
But the question is, would it work?
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What do you think Rainie's great plan is?
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