Gone (newt fanfic)

Chapter 1

"I wake up nauseated, and breathing heavily. I grab the cold hard metal and lift myself up, my breaths now sound like struggled gasps. The cart sways as i fight to gain my balance. I try to scream, i bang on the roof, stomp on the floor, as hard as i can, but nothing. Black dots start to cloud my vision, my body sways then falls limp as i slip into an endless slumber.

"Meleanie WICKED is good"

I scream as they touch me, i squirm under their harsh and painful grip. They cover my mouth to mask my screams and cries. Their words are hushed and muffled, i continue to squirm and jerk under their grips. My body writhes under their sharp grip, my fingers claw aimlessly at the air, my feet jerk and twitch with effort, my head shakes. I'm cut off mid scream when they inject me with something. Only moments pass before i start to feel my eyelids getting heavy. Everything slows and then stops completely as i picture him in my mind, his beautiful face, the sound of his laugh, the way his eyes crinkle when he smiles. Sleep welcomes me with open arms as my eyelids slide shut.

I hear feet padding against the floor, "GRAB HER!" I hear a very familiar voice scream, "You're too late Newt. She's already Gone." I hear Chancellor Paige say. Gone. Gone. Gone. The word rings in my ears like a foul taste in my mouth."

I wake up in my bed, covered in sweat and surrounded by tons of worried faces. "Meleanie" I hear my name being called but can't put the voice to a face. My throat feels dry and raw, i breathe heavily as i try to decipher my whereabouts. Then it all hits me. I'm in WICKED headquarters. I sit up, wincing slightly as i rub my wrists. The pain soon fades as it always does, but the memory hangs clear in my mind. I feel crowded and uncomfortable. i look at Minho and he nods "okay, everyone back up!" his voice booms through the quiet room. Everyone but Newt and Thomas back up. Newt looks at me with complete concern wrapped up in his big eyes. Thomas looks generally scared, and Minho looks at me thoughtfully. I sigh as they continue to stare at me. "Guys I'm fine, really, i am" when i say this my voice comes out hoarse and scratchy. My throat aches from lack of water, my body soon relaxes and my breathing becomes steady and normal again. They all stare at me, shaking their heads "What?" i ask, silence. "What?" i ask a little louder, silence. "WHAT?!?" i scream and they all breathe sighs of relief. "Thank god, we thought you'd lost your attitude" I glare at Minho "Oh coming from you Minwhore" I say with a smile, he shakes his head literally forcing himself not to smile, but it doesn't work so he ends up smiling like an idiot. Everybody looks confused, even Newt and Thomas, me and Minho look at each other and laugh. "What so everyone else can have secrets and inside jokes with Minho, but i can't?" i say looking around the group of boys before me, they shake their heads.

Newt looks at me almost hurt... Oh god, i didn't mean to make him upset... I know how he feels when i talk to some of the others, but we agreed Thomas, Minho, Alby, and Frypan were okay. I look at him but he drops his gaze, i look at him confused. I look at everyone else and they all drop their gazes to the floor... "Meleanie please go to Chancellor Paiges office. Immediately" i hear the words over the intercom, everyone sighs as i turn my back, i feel their gazes on me "Be safe" I hear someone with an accent say, my heart jumps in my chest... I walk out of our sleeping chambers and to her office... I knock and hear a faint 'come in', i open the door slowly to find her sitting at her desk, with her head down writing something on a piece of paper, probably important.

"Having nightmares again?" she asks me nonchalantly, i shrug waving it off but she sees right through that. "Do't lie to me Meleanie. You should know very well what happens when you lie to me" i nod sighing "Are we done here? I have something to figure out with New-" she cuts me off before i can say his name. "Look I've called you down here because, i know you and Newt like each other, and i know yo two are dating. But when he goes into the maze, which is very soon, we can't have you guys going out. Cause it will cause... some damage..." she says and i feel the tears welling up in my eyes but i force them back "What do you mean it will cause "some damage'?" i ask getting angrier and angrier. But she just looks down at her desk, unable to meet my gaze... "May i be excused?" i say through gritted teeth, i hear her sigh but don't wait for her answer seeing as I'm already out the door. I walk back into our sleeping chamber, and look for Newt. my eyes dance around the boys trying to spot him. I see him in the corner. I walk over to him, the tears threatening to fall... He looks up and then drops his gaze. "Newt can i talk to you, for a second?" i ask softly and he nods.

We walk on gravel outside, staring at our feet. "Newt, i like you. In fact i might even love you..." a tear escapes my eye but i continue "Chancellor Paige said that since you were going into the maze soon... we h-a-hav-ee to b-b-brea-k-k u-up..." the final five words come out in sobs. "So that's it then? You're just gonna do whatever the bloody hell she says? I love you Meleanie. And the fact that you might love me back, makes me want to smile and kiss you. But then saying that you're breaking up with me just cause she said so, doesn't make me think you do." he says hurt clearly laced in his voice... "But if that's what you want..." his voice quivers as he chokes down a sob. He goes to walk away but i grab his sleeve and pull him back to me. He looks off past my shoulder. "Newt, look at me" i say softly and his gaze slowly finds my eyes as he towers over me. "She said if we didn't break up.. it would cause you to get some sort of damage... I love you too much... and that's why I'm telling you this now.." my voice trails off at the end. "What damages?" he asks but i shrug "She didn't tell me..." i say looking down. He sighs and walks away "I love you Newt" my voice barely above a whisper...

-Newts pov-,

I hear her whisper 'I love you Newt' as i walk away, tears fall from my eyes as i dare to think about all the fun we had sneaking around, stealing kisses every chance we got... I walk back into our chamber and everyone looks at me. "What did she say?" Tommy asks but i don't answer, instead i punch the wall. Anger boils inside of me, all the room goes silent, and that's when i know, she'd walked back into the room. I feel her gaze on me, but i refuse to meet it. I walk past her our shoulders brushing slightly, i hear her inhale a sharp breath but pretend as if i didn't notice it. I stomp over to Chancellor Paige's office and walk right in, not even bothering to knock. "Newt..." she says without looking up from the document she was reading. "WH-" she cuts me off mid-sentence and says "Newt, why don't you take a seat" "No" i say pacing around the room. "Sit. down. NOW" her voice booms and i shudder, taking a seat. She sighs before she starts explaining. "Look we can't have you two dating because, it would cause damages to the both of you. Things would go wrong, you'd both be so attached to each other... we can't have that... you'd be reluctant about going into the maze, wouldn't want to leave each other... I see the way you look at each other, you love her as she loves you..." Chancellor Paige says. I don't bother to ask if i can take my leave, i just walk out.

I walk back to our chambers ad straight to my bed. I feel everyone's gaze on me, but i ignore it. Out of the corner of my eye, i see Meleanie on her bed as well. I soon fall asleep exhausted from everything that had happened today..

Days pass and me and Meleanie speak very few words, barely even exchange glances. She walks clinging to Minho's arms, when no ones looking, I'm looking at her. I know she looks at me too. I'm walking behind everyone else, dragging my feet. Suddenly a very small hand pushes on my chest, i stop walking dead in my tracks. I look at her beautiful face and she nods her head towards a closet, i nod and walk over there with her. Within minutes we're both in there waiting for the other to talk. She breaks the silence. "Newt.. it's killing me not talking to you... i miss your laugh, the feel of your arms around me, i miss your kisses, your smile. I miss. You. I know I'm spending a lot of time with Minho, that's because he knew we were dating, i told him. I told him how i loved you and how we broke up. I can see pure jealousy on your face when I'm clinging to his arm, but it's because it gives me comfort. I used to do that with you too... but seeing as i can't anymore, Minho's there... Other then you Newt, he was my best friend..." she says this, her words rushed. I sigh dropping her gaze. I feel her arms wrap around me and cling tightly. I wrap my arms around her and hug her back even tighter. Her tears soak my shirt, but i don't care. I hold on for as long as possible. She breaks the hug and looks up at me, she kisses my cheek, then my lips. But when her lips touch mine, they were gone as soon as they were there. She walks out but i grab her arm and pull her back in. I kiss her, and she kisses back. Her arms wrap around my neck, pulling me closer, my hands go to her waist. I smile into the kiss and soon, so does she.