Nothing Ever Goes To Plan - Drarry

Blame

Sirius strolled into the headmaster's office where he had spent so much of his time with James and Remus during their years at Hogwarts. Sirius smiled reminiscing about the good old days when Snape snapped him out of it.

"Sirius Black. What are you doing, on my grounds?" He said as he sat down at his desk. Sirius just walked over to the seat in front of him and sat himself down and placed his feet up on the desk like he used to do when he was 15.

"If I remember correct Severus, you and I spent a great deal of time in this very office when we were 15," He said smirking. "Put your feet down" he warned as Sirius simply stood up and laughed while walking over to see the portraits he had hanging up on his wall. Sirius stopped when he came across Dumbledore.

"Sirius how nice to see you again. Visiting Harry I presume?" Sirius just nodded his head slightly. "If our friend here lets me," he said raising his eyebrows at Severus. "Why should I Sirius?" he asked the animagus with that evil smirk on his face.

"Oh come on Sev. Both you and I know something's going on with Harry, before he never failed a class, now he's failing 3? He's sharing a room with Draco Malfoy of all people and hasn't kicked up a fuss about it? Hermione and Ron wrote to me the other day saying they were concerned. He's been distant, not wanting to talk. Talking about dropping out of Hogwarts?" He said with real worry.

"Both me and you know this is Harry's home, and he wouldn't leave voluntarily if he was allowed to stay for the rest of the year? Somethings going on with my boy Sev, let me find out what. Try and talk some sense into him Dumbledore," he said as McGonagall walked into the room.

"I agree with Sirius, Severus. Potter just hasn't been the same since the war. I think he blames himself for this mess," Minerva said to him with severe worry written all over it. "Okay Sirius, you get 5 hours with Potter. Then I want you off my grounds immediately. Do I make myself clear?" he said with a smirk playing on his lips.

"Yes sir," Sirius said and saluted as he walked out the office and started making my way to the new dorms where the eight years were staying.

***

Harry and Sirius were sitting in Harry's room which he shared with Malfoy. They were sitting on his four poster bed, with the Gryffindor symbol on his bed sheets. Harry couldn't help but continue finding himself glance over looking at the empty Slytherin's bed. Wondering where he was. He was abruptly pulled out of his thoughts by Sirius standing up.

"Look, Harry, I don't have a lot of time here. So don't mess me about. Tell me what I want to know and then we can spend the rest of the day together okay?" The Gryffindor was surprised by his bluntness but intrigued by what had godfather had to say.

"Okay, I'll tell you what you want to know, just tell me what this is about?" he said swinging his legs over the side of the bed so his back was towards the Slytherin's bed but he was facing Sirius.

"Promise me you'll tell me the truth, Harry?" Sirius said seriously. "I promise, just tell me what this is about?" Harry said growing impatient.

"Well, I was going to come and visit you for my birthday, but a few days ago I got an owl from Ron and Hermione, saying that you were failing classes, skipping classes? Talking about dropping out of Hogwarts? Not kicking up hell about sharing room with Malfoy? What's going on Harry? Talk to me. Ron said you broke up with Ginny?" He said standing in front of the boy who Sirius remembered first meeting, as just a little boy.

A baby boy.

--Flashback--

Sirius had been informed by Dumbledore that Lily had gone into labour. Sirius needed to be there instantly to be there for his two best friends as their beautiful little baby was brought into the world. Sirius immediately apparated to St Mungo's Sirius ran up to the ward Lily was being held on. He saw Remus sitting there.

"Has she given birth yet?" Sirius asked. "No not yet," Remus said with the biggest smile crossing his face, he sat down next to his best friend. They sat and waited for about 10 minutes and then finally James came running out.

"It's a boy," he said with the biggest smile possible written across his face. Sirius and Remus instantly beamed back at him as James grabbed their hands and dragged them into the room. There sat Lily holding a beautiful little baby with the biggest smile written across her face. He hadn't seen her smile that brightly since her wedding day.

"Padfoot! Moony! You made it!" she said looking up at him. "Of course Lil, we wouldn't have missed it for the world!" Sirius said with explanation while looking down at the most innocent thing he's ever seen. "Would you like to hold your godson Padfoot?" He looked so shocked, unbelieving what he had just heard.

"Godson?" the couple just smiled widely at him. "Only if you want of course," James said as Sirius took Baby Potter out Lily's arms and cuddled him looking down at the most innocent little thing he had ever seen. "It would be my pleasure," Sirius said, mesmerised by the little boy,

"Well, Padfoot meet your godson, Harry James Potter," James said holding Lily's hand smiling at their best friend who was deeply in love with the little child in his arms.

--End Of Flashback--

"Do you want to know the truth?" Harry said as Sirius nodded his head and sat down on the bed next to him. "I blame myself," Harry said looking down to his hands that were sitting in his lap.

"If I had just given myself up to Voldemort years ago, nobody would have had to die for me. Die to protect me. Not Mad-eye, not Tonks, not Dumbledore, not Cedric, not Dobby. Nobody, nobody would have died for me. Sometimes I lay awake at night, just lying there thinking, maybe if I wasn't born," Harry started to say as a tear fall down his face.

"Then maybe, just maybe. My parents wouldn't have died," he said as he just broke down as Sirius wrapped his arms around the sobbing boy. "Harry, listen to me. Even if you did give yourself over to him, he still would have killed people. He needed to kill Dumbledore, no matter who you lost. They all died because they wanted to fight. Not because you made them.  Now listen to me, Harry. You were your parents pride and joy. They would be so proud of the young man you are. I remember the day you were born like it was yesterday. I hadn't seen your parents so happy in years," Sirius said as he tried to console the boy who was breaking down in his arms.

This is what Harry needed. He had kept his feeling bottled up for so long, he needed to explode. Otherwise, something bad would have happened to him and Sirius don't think he could have dealt with losing Harry as well. Suddenly Malfoy burst in as Harry was sobbing onto Sirius' top. Harry looked up trying to wipe away the tears as quickly as possible.

"Oh, shit sorry," Malfoy said and quickly did an 180 spin and closed the door before walking away. Harry was shocked, he didn't think he had ever heard Malfoy apologize for anything. "Okay, now go get yourself cleaned up and I'll meet you down at the great hall so we can celebrate my birthday," Sirius said smiling at the boy. Harry just nodded his head and headed towards the bathroom he and Draco had to share.