I sit on my bed thinking.
Of what?
I guess of you?
But i want to know why?
Why cheat on someone you supposedly like.
Makes no sense.
You make my head spin.
Why?
Why?The confusion is unbearable.
I don't know weither to hate you
Dispise you
Dislike youMy heart says I still love you
But you talk to more girls..
Besides the one your withMy heart still beats faster and faster
The confusion
Confusion
Oh my Lord the confusionHelp me understand
If we were ever to love one another would you still feel the sameI know your young
I am to
But don't cheat
Your hurting to many hearts
We're sixteen
Only sixteen
So why
Why cheatThe confusion
You left me for a dumb girl
Who can't use proper English
Or count
Or has freinds to help her
Like I doThey will always stand up for me
You didn't protect her
I'm confused
Would you even protect meThe fustration
Its killing me
My heart had thumped faster when I was trying to help you
And herBut she kept making it worse
For you and her
She is dumb
She is beneath me
I am superiorSo I will get on my throne
Where I am meant to be
And be the queen I am
And you will get on your knees and bow
That's when my confusion endsI may shake cause I can't stop
Can't stop thinking about him with her
We're enemies now
I bet you that much
But i will be the superior
We are only sixteen
But I bet you one day you will eat the scraps off of the wealthy man's floor
That's when I will be above you
There is no confusion thereI still love him
I told him I hope he fails in life
But in reality he will leave you in the dust
And break your heart
Like he did minesI hate thinking about him
I want to vomit
He could've been my king
Me his queenWho knows if that is ever going to happen
This to me is a test
A test from God
I know I can be good
But its bad that I still want him
Protect him
Love him
Hug him
Care for him
I want himBut now its over
Bet he doesn't care about anybody but himself
You have selfish thoughts
You want everything
But I wanted youCalm down
I'm calm
I'm not calm
I'm confused
Frustrated
I'm hyperventilating
I'm having an attack
I'm crying
I hate youBut I don't
Cause I'm confused

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PoetryA series of original poems The emotions of my failed love and tragic thoughts and emotions There is no good left in me to fight back. Because, I'm sad and angry at the same time. It's a time when I feel like I'm in the darkness again. I can't hate...