confusion

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I sit on my bed thinking.
Of what?
I guess of you?
But i want to know why?
Why cheat on someone you supposedly like.
Makes no sense.
You make my head spin.
Why?
Why?

The confusion is unbearable.
I don't know weither to hate you
Dispise you
Dislike you

My heart says I still love you
But you talk to more girls..
Besides the one your with

My heart still beats faster and faster
The confusion
Confusion
Oh my Lord the confusion

Help me understand
If we were ever to love one another would you still feel the same

I know your young
I am to
But don't cheat
Your hurting to many hearts
We're sixteen
Only sixteen
So why
Why cheat

The confusion
You left me for a dumb girl
Who can't use proper English
Or count
Or has freinds to help her
Like I do

They will always stand up for me
You didn't protect her
I'm confused
Would you even protect me

The fustration
Its killing me
My heart had thumped faster when I was trying to help you
And her

But she kept making it worse
For you and her
She is dumb
She is beneath me
I am superior

So I will get on my throne
Where I am meant to be
And be the queen I am
And you will get on your knees and bow
That's when my confusion ends

I may shake cause I can't stop
Can't stop thinking about him with her
We're enemies now
I bet you that much
But i will be the superior
We are only sixteen
But I bet you one day you will eat the scraps off of the wealthy man's floor
That's when I will be above you
There is no confusion there

I still love him
I told him I hope he fails in life
But in reality he will leave you in the dust
And break your heart
Like he did mines

I hate thinking about him
I want to vomit
He could've been my king
Me his queen

Who knows if that is ever going to happen
This to me is a test
A test from God
I know I can be good
But its bad that I still want him
Protect him
Love him
Hug him
Care for him
I want him

But now its over
Bet he doesn't care about anybody but himself
You have selfish thoughts
You want everything
But I wanted you

Calm down

I'm calm

I'm not calm

I'm confused
Frustrated
I'm hyperventilating
I'm having an attack
I'm crying
I hate you

But I don't
Cause I'm confused

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