He never loved You [Warrior Cats]

The cold

I don't like the dark. I never have liked the dark, I guess you can blame it on the moon. No matter where I slept, the moon light was always in my eyes. Tigerclaw always said it was my father staring at me.
I knew it wasn't true, but I just allowed it. I liked hearing his voice.
But now I'm stuck in the cold darkness of this forest. I could easily escape, go back to the real cat world, and risk permanent death.
Sometimes I think that's more logical than staying here. Mapleshade doesn't like me, Thistleclaw depises me, and everyone else thinks I am as useless as a kit.

I'd rather be a kit then immoral or evil.

I am cold.
I can't be cold.

I hide my face
I dislike it all

I am overwhelmed by the truth,  a truth I tried to hid for my whole existence. One I denied that got me stuck here. He never loved me.

It was a lie. A manipulative case to keep me near him. But the question is, who was more desperate for affections. Did he use me for affection so that he could be happy or did he use my affections to make ThunderClan hate me.
Did he want me to end up here?
Is it true that all I was to him was a minion. Am I really that useless?

He promised me power. He promised me respect.
He promised me love

All I want is love.

I just wanted to get them to look at me and say, "I love that cat."

I wanted them to look away from Fire and say, "I like that cat."
I wonder if they've forgotten about me down there, I wonder if my brother ever thinks about me, negative or postive?
I am here
But not enough to be noticed or thought of
I left no mark
HE NEVER LOVED ME
HE NEVER LET ME SHINE
I am no more than a kit in the darkness
Wandering pathetic alone

I dislike the cold and the Dark. I dislike the Fire and the warmth of the Tiger. I love the red round spheres that hang off a green bush. I just want to love
I love you
I loved you
I need you
I needed you
You left me here
They left me here.