monster

scared

I can't believe he called me his lil jaws. It was awesome my dream came true being with the guy I had a major crush on since I was in 6th grade but I don't wanna hurt him what was I gonna do what if he makes me mad and I hurt him I'll hate myself thinking getting zoned out again he raises his hand I flinch didn't know what he was gonna "what's wrong why did u flinch for" he put his hand on my shoulder I tear up remembering what my dad did every time I took his beer away or something I did I say sorry and run upstairs I run in the room what am I doing I have to run away I Barry my face in a pillow he comes in and sits on the foot of the bed and rubs my back "Jamie you don't need to be sorry why did u flinch" I look at him "I'm sorry it's jus I got zoned and only thing I saw was your hand raise and ..... he stoped me "do u think I was gonna hit you" I tear up and shake my head yes "Jamie I will never hit u I promise ur my girl well I hope you are I like you a lot I wanna keep u safe " he hugs me again he opened up to me wow this feels good I look at him and smile maybe I can trust him after all he's my dream guy he called me his I wanna be his I hold his hands and look at him and with out even thinking all sudden were kissing I notice and I blush I'm kissing my dream guy oh my god this is awesome