monster

why is this happening

It's been a few months now me and jakob broke up me and him got in a big fight he was up set well so was I lost the love of my life yes I snapped on him but I loved him. Well a few months go by and he has a gf then I get over him kinda yes I'm still in love with him but a lot has changed I was getting depressed my friend who I concentrated as a brother was very sick and my friends and everything was going down hill I was getting yelled at more then jakob asks for me back I don't know what to do I love him but I'm scared I want him back so bad but I don't wanna get hurt I keep telling him I don't know of course I wanna say yes but I can't not how I feel how I am or how I'm acting I couldn't take it i try to explain to him why then he finnley understands.few weeks pass we start talking I'm already still depressed Cuz my brother. So I try to talk to jakob hoping he could help. But it didn't seem like he was listening so I just shut up and talked to him. Falling asleep on the phone with him