I love you... (English) {COMPLETED}

{Chapter 1. Badluck on my way!}

I was in my car on my way to Ashley,Jinxx,CC,Jake and Andy. I never met the other boys before but you know I have to keep up to date on my best friends fame band. I started to got my flashback like most of the time. I tried to ignore it but the words were spoken through my head exact like they said it 8 years ago...

*flashback*

"you're worthless! Stupid bitch! Go to your home behind the windows as whore!" screamed Elisa. And there we go, welcome back bullying... I can remember it as the day of yesterday... "HERE THIS IS WHAT YOU'RE WORTH!" and she punched me in the face. I was only 12 years old and i didn't know what I had to do. She didn't stopped with punching me, punching me till I was Knock Out.

*couple minutes later*

The ambulance arrived. They took me with them for medical examination. They would do an infusion in my left arm and I started to scream and resist me against them. But I failed, they won and all the scares appears.

*end flashback*

I didn't pay attention on the road and I realized that my whole life was going through my head. From when I was 10 years old till Now, when I am 20 years old. Everything to the last detail. I slammed on my brakes and I turned in circles. I came to stop when I hitted a tree. Luckily nothing bad happened. I went out of my car for looking for how damaged my car was. "DAMNIT AND OF COURSE THIS WILL BE A RIB OUT MY LIFE FOR REPAIR THIS" I screamed to my car. I went back inside the car en started to drive carefully. Of course my gasoline was empty so I had to go to the gas station. After I filled the gasoline by I went inside the shop for paying. When I got inside I saw a familiar face. IT WAS ASHLEY! I started to scream:"ASHLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY" and I walke to him. He opened his arms for a drama hug. I hugged him thightly. "What are you doing here Ash?" Asked I him when we let each other loose. "Buying some cigarettes for Andy, what about you?" was his answer. "well.. my gasoline was empty... How long does it takes from here to your home?" was my answer to him. He was thinking some minutes before he gave the answer. "like 30 min. Driving the way all over and you're there, walking in through the forest and there you're" "Thanks see you there" I answered to him. I stole a cigarette from Andy's new cigarettes and walked back to my car. I went inside the car and took my cigarette and turned the radio on and drove to the home of Ashley.

*half way the road*

Again another flashback. I could better take the metro next time.

*flashback*

I took the knife for the first time. I was thinking, do I had to do this? I am only twelve years old.. I am fucking my whole life when I do this.. well fuck it, My whole life is already fucked. I putted the knife on my arm and making deep wounds in it. My arm was bleeding while I was sitting on the bathroom floor. The blood fell down on the ground. There I sat next to a pool of blood. It looked horrible. Softly I sang I don't care from Fall Out Boy when I was thinking about school and all the reactions of the kids in there. I washed my arm and cleaned the floor.

*end flashback*

There I go, driving into a car with 100 km per hour. I slammed as hard I could on my brakes. I started spinning and left black tire tracks. I saw smoke came out of the side of my car engine. I tried as a fool to bring the car on the side of the way. I failed and I slammed into a tree. I jumped out of my car and took my backpack with me. I called the firefighters and left standing beside my car and went to the middle of the street for the safety of me and everyone else.

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hiii here's the first chapter c:

hope you enjoy it ;)

( every single time I translate a chapter or a book I'll thank x_ehvdp for reading this and say if it's right translated or not coz i really suck in English most of the time x: )
bye bye

~ Esmee