**disclaimer...this is a collection of poems that I wrote all at the same time in the space of like half an hour. They aren't the same poem, but all kind of go together.
1
I'm singing our song and dancing
along
But it's not the same without you in
my arms
I'm drunk and alone and wanting to
be home
And not home in the states
But home like where we were and
what we had
But it's all gone, it didn't last
I'll move on, I'm just not moving fast
I'll train my heart to get beyond and
forget the past
2
It's a weird feeling when I want to go
out
But I only want to go out with you
So I stay in and cry myself to sleep
Remembering the nights when you
loved me deep
And try to forget how it felt to be so
alive, so wanted, so loved
Just by the look in your eyes
And try to forget how the moon and
the stars
Shined down on us and all the cars
rushing by
And how you held me in your arms
and I'd just sigh
So content and happy to be exactly
where I was
In the present
Without fears
And without dreams
3
I don't know if I blame you or me or
the community
But somewhere along the line
I gave in and thought you really were
mine
I bought the talk and I bought the lies
I bought the pretty words and the gentle sighs
I started sacrificing dreams and
reworking my plans
Because I didn't want them without
your hand
In mine, you right by my side
But somehow our love has gone, it went away and died
Or at least yours did when you said
no more
Mine's still here and it tears me apart
To think that I believed with my naive
heart
That you meant what you said and
how you felt
Every time you spoke and made me
melt
I fell for you so hard and true
And now I'm here all cold and blue
Broken inside but smiling without
Because I'll be damned if you see
What you've done to me
I'll bury my mistakes, and I guess you
were one
I'll hold my head high and walk in the
sun
I'll go on with my life and regain my
path
Without you in it, because I can be
better than that
I was strong all alone and can be
again
I'll just try a little harder and smile a
little bigger and laugh a little louder
Until I'm not just faking for you
and me and the community
But until I believe it down deep inside
me
4
That's the corner where we used to
sit
And that's the park where we used to
kiss
And that's the street where we used to
hide
When all the neighbors wanted to pry
Over there's my house where now I
cry
All alone on the inside.
