Unwonted. By Eli Oko

Summertime Love

I've neither remembered nor forgotten, I merely chose to not acknowledge. It's pulls are strong and that familiar stare is empowering. I can only imagine myself in her shoes. How does it feel right now to be loved in this moment? There are a thousand reasons why I should walk away; my words say one thing but my face lights up. Why am I smiling? I actually do not know, it could be you but it also could be something not present that lights my soul. It gives me hope as cliché as that may sound. It warms my heart as it whispers it cares. Your voice no longer soothes me as I found comfort in the things unspoken. Where am I? As I drift off into the city lights between the buildings and beyond the fountain, I've never been here before so bare with me. We can experience anything together and we're not even side by side. I haven't felt this free in a while but yet I'm being held down by expectation. My past calls and I can't find my options. Would you understand? I never heard you say I can't but why do I feel like they're all judging me. Your here with me, right? So why did you let me fall? You can't rely on me, you can't expect better from me. I've lost love because of this before and I can always lose it again. I am a danger to myself. I've concluded that I am more, I just haven't accessed my potential. I promise, promises - I'll treat you with affection. It's been hard on the hearts of mine, but I only love truly so believe that it is real. I'll continue to be amongst the water, standing by the bridge between you and I. I couldn't be clear as I struggle to peer through this blur. I see with my heart and the words help me to feel my way through the pain so if therefore you need eyes for your sight take mine. Otherwise, let's run through the field using only passion and direct our paths with the sentiments like dew drops falling from our lips. My summertime love, I'll see you when my sun shines back on my side of my earth.