Black and Yellow Together with Red (Goetzeus)

Chapter 27

Marco

I woke up from Mario's hair tickling my nose. I moved my head away and got comfortable again. I heard an annoyed sound beside of me. I put my hand on the cupboard next to the bed and searched for my phone. I looked at the screen and saw it was twenty past seven. We had training today. I rolled on my right side and patted Mario's head. "Mario, we need to wake up."

"Hmmm... I don't want to."

I chuckled, "we have training."

He let out a deep sigh, before pushing himself in a sitting position. "It's cold outside."

"I know," I laughed at Mario's sleepy face. "I'm so happy we're friends again."

He tensed a bit by my words, but said, "yeah, me too."

I knew he wasn't really happy about it, but I was. I wondered if it was selfish to think that.

We stared at each other for about three minutes, before I stood up.

"Marco."

"Yeah?"

"I don't want to disappoint you." Mario said.

"What do you mean?" I sat down again. "What's wrong?"

"I don't want you to think we are like we used to." He explained.

"I know that. But it's defenitely better than nothing."

He smiled, "I agree. It's just." He leaned back against the wall. "Don't expect too much from me."

"I won't. I just wish I never heard you say that." That was the wrong thing to say. I saw it in Mario's eyes.
He stood up and got dressed quickly. "Mario" I stood up too. "I didn't mean it that way."

He stopped for a moment, but then continued pulling his training shirt over his head.

"I'm sorry" I grabbed his arm. "I fucked up again."

"Sorry, if the way I am is bothering you." He snapped. "What am I supposed to do when I feel this way? I ingored it for years, Marco. Years!"

"I know and I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that." I felt so stupid. He was obviously still hurt.

"You hurt me a lot. Yesterday I forgave you and now you're saying this. It hurts. This is just the way I am. We've argued about that a lot, but I don't think you fully understand that forgiving you isn't the same as me changing. Hell, if I could change myself. But I can't. I have to deal with it everyday."

When I didn't say anything back, he got out of the door. "See you at training."