Blinded

Let's Forget About Tonight

All I could do was engulf him into a hug. I knew how he felt, I had lost my mom, too. He wasn't much for crying. In fact, I had only seen him cry once in our relationship. But, I felt his body shake while sobs racked his body. "Baby, it'll be okay." I say quietly.

"No, Cassiel. It won't be. She'll either die from this, or she'll live pained until she dies. It won't be okay." He replied angrily.

I kept stroking his hair. "Is that all that's wrong? I'm here for you, Ray. You can tell me everything." I probed. He kept sobbing and went into the bedroom. I followed him. "Ray?" I questioned.

"Please go. Cassiel, I love you. But please go." He said looking at the floor.

"O-okay. I'll- I'll go." I kissed his forehead and walked out of the room crying silently. I didn't want to be here right now.

I texted anyone I could to see if I could hang out at their house. I know it's extremely rude, but I need someone right now. I was finally able to get ahold of Miles. He allowed me over because Arryn has just dropped the biggest bomb. She's told only him and I that she is moving to California. Thankfully, it isn't until after the wedding. Unfortunately, her and Miles were supposed to walk together and sit together. But, they have broken up.

I get into my car after writing a small note to Ray. I drive a few minutes to his house. I go to his door and knock quietly. He opens it silently. He's still really depressed from the break up. He shuts the door and I collapse onto his couch. He lays on the ground next to me, and we both break. We cried for hours. We would switch positions to comfort each other. After 3 hours, I run out of tears, and so does he. "Let's talk it out, okay?" I say.

He just nods his head. I decide to start. "So, it was confirmed that I cannot get pregnant. But there's something wrong with me that no one knows. I haven't gotten my period in 2 months, I've been puking like crazy, and I have every single symptom of pregnancy. But I can't get pregnant. Ray was with me and that crushed him. I feel so bad for telling him what the test told me: that I was pregnant. His mom is also really sick. They don't think she'll make it. And, Ray broke. I'm his fiancé, I'm supposed to be there for him, help him through this. But he won't let me. I tried and he told me to leave. And that broke me. I had to go somewhere, and I knew you were having troubles to, and I need to help you, as well. And here I am." I explained.

"Well, uh. Arryn and I broke up. She announced she was leaving to pursue her acting career. That was right after I was promoted. I love her so much, Cass. I was going to propose. She was my everything. I'll love her forever. I swear, we had such an amazing connection. It made most married couples jealous. I'm scared, Cassiel, I don't want to lose her forever. She'll probably fall in love with some big film exec. and I'll never see or hear from her again. I lost Monty, and now her. I'm scared for Kerry. I lose everyone I love." He said putting his head in his hands and crying gently.

"Sweetie, I'm not going anywhere. Ray and I aren't going anywhere. We'll always be here for you." I say pulling him into a hug and smiling. I feel him smile back. "Ray also dropped a bomb on me. He wants to quit RoosterTeeth and Achievement Hunter and pursue Twitch full time. I told him I'll support him wherever he goes, whatever he does, but RoosterTeeth was how I found him. You are all my second family, our second family, and I can't leave with him, but I don't know if I can stay without him." It was his turn to comfort me. He hugs me.

"I think it's wonderful you want to support him in anyway. But, I do understand what you're going through. It was the same thing with Arryn. I wanted to go with her to support her, but my job is here and so is my family, basically. Therefore, I couldn't go, especially since I got that promotion. I completely understand. And, I'm always here for you." He smiles.