Genesis POV-
Recap-
"Jack!" I yelled.
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Jack ran to me. "Gen whats wrong?"
"I had a dream that Matt died and everyone blamed me and I-I killed myself." I cried.
He hugged me. "Never think like that sis."
"I can't beleive this. I wanna go home."
"Lets go then." He smiled.
His smile really comforts me. He has the smile where you know everything is going to be okay.
I smiled. "Okay."
We got our bags ready and went to the lobby. We gave back the room keys and got in our car. We drove back to L.A. The drive was long I guess and really quiet. The music was playing but there was not much talking.
"Im glad you had that dream." Jack broke the silence.
"Um why?"
"Because if you didn't have the dream then we wouldnt be going back to L.A to see Matt."
"Yeah. We get to see Matt but he can't see us." I gave a fake smile.
"He will soon." Jack smiled.
"Maybe." I mumble mostly for me to hear it not Jack.
His smile went away. He suddenly became angry. "Why do you always think so negative Gen? Just because bad things are happening doesn't make it okay for you to make it worse. Just be happy for once."
"Jack I try. But every time I'm happy, something bad happens. And I'm tired of it."I sigh.
"Have you ever thought that its because you let it happen." He says looking at the road.
I turned my head to the window. Maybe he was right. I do let all the negativity get the best of me.
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He dropped me off at the hospital. I walked up to Matt's room and slowly enter. There was no one there so it gave me alone time. I walked up to Matt and pulled a chair beside his bed. I grabbed his hand and kisses it.
"Matt please wake up. I miss you. I cant sit around for you to be a ticking time bomb. Its either you wake up and hate me or you wake up and be you. I honesty don't expect you to love me. But I have always loved you. And that's never going to change no matter what. I never slept with Cam. I promise. I just said that to make you mad. I was mad and stupid." I say looking at him.
I get something out of my purse. It was his Cali benie.
"I still have this. The one you left in my car the first time we met. Matt I need you. I fucking love you. I can't live without you Matt. I can trust you. I cant trust my own brothers or anyone. Please wake up Matt. Please" I cried.
I sat there is silence watching his heart monitor.
Matt's POV-
"Genesis I'm sorry. I would never have you. I know you didn't sleep with Cam. You wouldn't do that. I love you too Gen. I'm sorry I cant wake up. I don't know why. I'm trying. I just want to fucking wake up and hug you. And possibly kiss you. I wish you could hear me. I miss you eyes, you cute little laugh, the way you scrunch up your nose right before you sneeze, i miss everything about you. I miss you Gen." I say knowing she cant hear me.
I wonder what she's doing. I can hear her breathing. I know she is still holding my hand. But is she looking at me? She needs to know something but I cant fucking tell her cuz she cant fucking hear me.
The door squeaks open. Genesis lets go of my hand.
"Johnson said I could find you here." Someone says.
Cameron?
"Yeah." Gen says back.
"Do you want to go get some food? Not like a date but as friends." Cameron says.
Please say no Genesis.
"Yeah sure I guess." She tells Cam.
"You don't have to go if you don't want to." He tells her.
"Its okay. I could eat." Gen says.
"Good because i need to tell you something."
The door shut so I'm guessing they left. God damn it Genesis. He batter tell you the truth.
Genesis's POV-
Cam drove us to Taco Star. We parked in the parking lot and walked in. I found us a table and he ordered our food. After a while he finally came back with our food and drinks.
"Two horchatas and some Carne Asda fries."he says handing me my drink.
We ate and talked about a few random topics.
"So what did you need to tell me." I smiled.
He sighed. "It has to do with Matt."
My smile faded. What his he going to say? This cant be good can it?
"Genesis I-I." He paused.
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Kinda a long chapter lol like really long. But i hope you enjoyed. Sorry I haven't updated. School is getting in my way but yes i did update on a Tuesday. Sorry. I know some words are spelled wrong. And I'm sorry. But happy early Thanksgiving. And eat a lot. Be good weirdos. Picture in the picture thingy
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