Kehlani Parrish
October, 22 2018
12:26 am
"Come on Nami, take this shot." said Ed, one of my best friends.
After a long day, we'd go to the club and party for awhile, sometimes for literally no reason at all.
He was referring to one of the shots of Vodka that he'd been downing for some time now. I normally wouldn't reject a drink, but Vodka wasn't something that I could get down with.
"Hell nah, this Henny is doing me just fine." I said
"Awww, no fun Nami has entered the building." said Noodz aka Micah, my other best friend
"Right." Ed said
I laughed and took another sip before removing myself from the couch, "Fuck y'all."
I wanted something a little stronger, but not as strong as that Vodka, so I walked over to the bar.
Before taking a seat, I eyed the bartender.
"Hello." I said with a smile
Returning the smile she greeted me, "Hi."
"Well well well." I heard from beside me
I turned my head, to be greeted by a familiar face. My old friend Jhené.
"No long time no see." I said
"Mhmm, how you been?" She said with a smile
"Good, good. You still with that nigga?" I asked bluntly
She rolled her eyes, "Yes, Lani..." she let out a breath and continued, "he proposed."
"Hm, and you just let him without saying shit about us?"
She crossed her arms over her chest, "I wasn't about to just tell him and ruin that moment."
I rolled my eyes at her idiocy, "Whatever. So, you engaged now."
"Yes."
"What you doing here alone then?" I questioned
"A girl can't go out alone?"
"Nah." I eyed her from head to toe, "Not with the way you lookin'. You already know if you was mine, ya wouldn't dare go clubbing alone, especially not wearing what you wearing."
"Well, that's you with your controlling ass. He doesn't mind."
"Mmkay. You look good though."
She smiled again, "As do you."
I looked at her for awhile starting to smirk. I was waiting to see if she'd catch on to what I was thinking.
And she did.
She shook her head instantly, "No, Lani. It's been months. We can't anymore. Like I said, i'm in engaged now."
I sucked my teeth, "Fuck that, Né. You and I both know you miss my tongue."
"Sean's tongue is doing me just fine."
I rolled my eyes at the thought of that nigga even touching her down there, "I can guarantee his shit ain't nothing like mine. Don't lie either."
She looked away because she knew I was telling the truth.
"Exactly."
"I just...can't keep doing him like that."
I rolled my eyes, "Aye, fuck him. Listen to me." I grabbed her hand, pulling her closer to me, "I'm not about to keep playing witchu'...let me eat you right."
She bit her lip and looked at me.
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"Mmm...fuck lani!" Jhené moaned out as she came on my tongue.
I sat up licking my lips, "Always taste so good."
She blushed and sat up slowly, "Thank you."
I waited on her next move, I could tell she had something bothering her.
"What's wrong?" I asked
She bit her lip nervously before getting up, "Lani...we really can't do this anymore, okay?"
I knew she was more so just telling herself that this couldn't happen again, but I agreed anyways.
I watched her and nodded, "Mhm."
She got dressed and grabbed her phone, "Okay...i'll uh...see you around?"
I nodded and stood up to hug her, placing a gentle kiss on her forehead. I watched her walk out of the room and soon enough, I heard the door to my house open and close. I got up from the bed and went into the bathroom for a shower.
I was single if that wasn't obvious enough. And people like Jhené was the exact reason why I decided on not being in a relationship.
That cheating shit.
Washing off the days dirt, I thought to myself:
What if I let someone else in? What if I allowed someone to love me just as much as I had loved myself? But I couldn't, because I knew they'd just hurt or cheat on me, leaving me alone to question what I had did wrong. I couldn't look foolish again and I definitely would never let anyone else tell me lies just to turn around and do exactly what they promised they'd never do.
Turning off the shower, I dried my hair with one towel, while wrapping the other around my body. I admired myself in the mirror for awhile in realization that I was actually hella fine. But I just couldn't help but wonder why that love shit never worked with me if I looked this good. It just didn't make sense.
I brushed my teeth before I turned off the bathroom light and went into my bedroom. I applied lotion to my body and put on a bra and panties before getting comfortable in bed. I turned off the light and turned to my side.
Some nights it'd just hit me how much I missed that relationship shit just for the cuddles and affection. I sighed and closed my eyes so that I could rest. Soon enough, I found myself in a deep slumber.
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A/N:
First chapter complete! Kinda short I feel, but i'm definitely aiming for the rest of the story parts to be longer.
