Tomorrow is Lia's wedding and Cole bugged me because he wants to pick up our suits. I decided to go because I'm not so busy person but I still have hang over made by the last night, we drunk so many beers because I'm so hurt realizing that you're not the man she likes.
And because of that it hurts more thinking that I'm not the man who will wait for her hands inside the altar while walking down in the aisle. I'm not the man who take care her when she's sick and thinking of that makes my heart break into pieces.
I arrived at the 'suit and tie' and sat down on a tool while waiting Cole. I looked into my phone and scrolling the pictures with her with our friends. I'm so stupid thinking that I had so many times that I can say how much I like her how much I love her but I wasted it.
Someone tapped my back and said "hey, don't regret it I know you're such a fool from losing her!" And that's him. How supportive.
"Come on, let's fit our suits" I said to change our topic because I know he'll tease me more from being such a silly being.
"Won't you stop her wedding? I can back you if you want." He said while putting his arm into my shoulder.
"If she will be happy for being married with him then I'm not gonna ruin it, I-am-not-like-you!" I run into his car.
He's driving the car while I'm playing my phone when this song played.
"Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should've bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should've gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man"
"Oh crap! Stop that music!" My finger hits the stop button.
"Looks who's affected!" Then laugh so hard. Yea I know it I shouldn't do like this thing but it really hurts!
Time flies I went home and making a decision if I need to go to her wedding. First, she's my childhood friend. Second, I'm the best man. Third, she'll search me. But she will be happy because it's her wedding even though I'm not there she still be married and if I watch out that scene well I think I'm just gonna drink muriatic acid than watching it so that I can't feel any heartache anymore.
And that night, I had a nightmare that I get you away from that wedding and we went to the beach where we want to go when we're just a little kid. We run in the sands without thinking about the people we left and just feel free. When we're in the boat I accidentally slipped on the floor and got lay down while seeing your worried face but it gets blurry until I can't see you anymore. I wish it just a nightmare no more no less.
I woke up that night which really makes my head shitty because of the nightmare. I want to see her but I remember that she is not leaving here anymore like we used before Mr. Lace proposed to her.
