Loving Her Was Red ( jerrie fanfiction )

Chapter 1 : Only Just A Dream 

Jade's P.O.V

 I watch as the blood drips down my wrist.

down it goes.

There just once more a drop falls into my sink. I look at myself in the mirror. God your ugly Jade. She'll never love you. Your worthless anyways. I sigh as I turn the water on. Washing  away what helped me deal with my feelings. I wiped away the tear from my face and walked out of the bathroom. There she was.

Laying there.

Asleep.

I watched her sleep.

God, she was beautiful.

I wanted her to know how I felt about her. I wanted her to be mine. How was I suppose to know how? I've never done this. 

"Morning baba!" Her soft voice said to me 

I just sat there. I knew she was staring at me. 

"Baba what's wrong ? You've been like this for days. Please tell me whats wrong. " 

" I love you perrie. " I said 

" well of course you do silly , were a band. " She said.

" More than that perrie." I said slowly leaning in and kissing her.

She kissed back.

I've been waiting for this moment for all my life but then suddenly, I woke up.

This was a dream?

I woke up panting.

I looked over to the clock 2:30 Am.

I looked over to see a sleeping Perrie. What did this dream mean? Did I love Perrie more than just a friend? I sat up and though about this. I couldn't I mean she is my best friend and all but what about sam? It would break his heart. I needed to tell someone about this.

Jesy.

I needed to tell someone I trusted with my life other than Perrie.

I guess it was decided.

I was gay and in love with Perrie?

I'm really not sure if this was true

What would managment think about it?

Furthmore ,What would Perrie think about it?

All these questions went through my mind as I slowly feel asleep.

author's note : Sorry I know this chapter was short!

Thanks for reading!

 ~Lexi