Cheese & Chocolates

Author's Note

IMPORTANT:
It's been a while since I updated my stories, but I have several reasons as to why I haven't finished them, so please forgive me for this awfully long post.

First and foremost, I have so many deadlines, upcoming projects, and I know that has been my reason for months now, but it's true. I'm really struggling on my academics, extra-curricular activities, and social life.

Furthermore, when I try to continue the stories, I completely forget what it's about in the first place due to the awfully large time gap since I last updated, that made me a bit writer's block too.

Next, depression. Yes, it had only been a few weeks that I started to overcome it. The reason behind it? I don't know, maybe stress, insecurity, and quarter life crisis. I'm a junior now, and the idea of work, and being unemployed repulsed me to my core. Pressure is also one of the reasons as to why I feel depressed lately, since I'm not really the brightest among the bunch, which is why I get scared of what my future would turn out to be. A lot of my friends would tell me that I should not stress that much about it, and I tried, but sometimes, I just can't help but to think about it. Working in a company I don't like terrified me. I started applying to one of my top priority companies for a pre-internship program but got rejected. It hurt, because I know my credentials aren't enough, however, I think it's a blow in my confidence level when I see people, who aren't as active as I am in organizations, get accepted.

Although my parents would tell me that there are more opportunities and that I should expect that kind of response from a multi-national company, there are times they would also remind me how interning in a multi-national company would really be beneficial in building my future career.

My low self-esteem led to depression, and I admit there are times I just want to go back to high school, so that I wouldn't have to deal with future responsibilities. I pushed myself a lot recently, and these past weeks, because of these negative thoughts, I wasn't able to sleep so much. Insomnia took a toll on me, and the idea of not being able to sleep never occured to me before. If that wasn't enough, I honestly have trust issues because of my personal problems. For some reason, these problems, whether it be friends or family, are coming at me consecutively, not giving me enough room to actually breathe.

Anyway, that's that. Enough about me.
Many times, I often debated in deleting my stories, and my account in general. Reading my past stories and some of the horrible comments added to my depression. Not that I have anything against them, because I appreciate constructive criticism. However, I would like to say that I've wrote those books for my sole pleasure of writing.

So I decided to post a collection of one-shot stories, just to treat my fans. [and there's no need to update often since each story is already completed on its own] I've been gone for so long and I feel like I needed to give them an in-depth explanation, as to why I disappeared just like that. Thanks for taking your time to read this author's note. [if you did]

Happy reading! :)

- kim x

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