Why is it so hard to reach you?
Eventhough you're so near...
Why is it difficult to comprehend
This yearning inside my heart?
I've been hiding the feelings within...
I tried so hard to ignore it's existence...
For I know that I'll just lose my mind...
If I continue this madness in my heart...
But this feeling was very strong...
I cannot control it anymore...
Even if I'm trying to cover my longings...
Still it shows all over my face...
My day started on my thoughts of you...
It'll end with your name tattooed on my mind...
You're voice makes my heart quicker...
Electricity flows up into my spines...
But I'm afraid how you might take it...
There are so many odds to reckon with...
I think that you'll not be ready
For the love that I'm offering...
Guess it's better to let the feeling die...
If the substitute is being with you forever...
It maybe a cowardly thing to do...
At least you'll be by my side till the end...
I might love again after this...
But I won't feel the same intensity as I felt for you...
I may open my heart again...
Still yours will I be longing to have...
For my heart will stay beating
Calling your name again...
It will feel excruciating every time
Because it felt so intense that it just stopped feeling...
Now, I'm just living for it was the only way to live...
I just keep breathing for it was expected of me...
Beneath this quiet exterior was a torn up kid...
Who longs for your unreachable heart...
Futility was screaming inside my head...
As my heart shouted surrender...
I'm tired of loving you again...
So afraid to be apart of your schemes...
Your too hard to fall in love with...
That my soul cries an agony...
You've only given me a battered mind
Leaving me only with a wrenched heart...
How can I move on?
Can I even wake up from this nightmare?
How can I love again?
If your love is the one I'm longing to have...
I just have to reckon this malady...
I need to hide underneath this sheets...
For tomorrow will rise anew...
Still my heart is on a bend...
It'll never be mended...
For my heart cries an agony...
I have to live with it...
Live with my shattered dreams...
