Ps. I still love you

Alex

Me and Katrina have been talking a for a while now. And I'd tell her but I don't want to. I mean she's nice, but I'm not sure if I love Katrina. Don't get me wrong she's the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. But I'm not sure if I actually love her. I do have feelings for her for sure though. And if I knew for sure I didn't love her how am I supposed to tell her. Because I don't want to let it out and tell her that I've had a thing with this girl for a while. And I think I want to date her. What do I say to Katrina?

Maybe I'll just tell her we've gotten an unhealthy relationship and that I can't talk to her anymore. And that I need to date this other girl to get you off my mind...how does that sound?

Anyway. This isn't even the important part. I went to the doctor yesterday. I was feeling excruciating pain in my back. And the doctor made me take a pet-scan, and they took some of my blood. They found a tumor. They are testing it today to see if it has cancer in it. I want to tell Katrina but I don't want to give her bad news after bad news.

She's a little clingy, I mean. I thought I loved her. Then I just started to realize I was just pretending. I realized I was just pretending because I knew she really meant it. And I couldn't care less if I went a day without talking it her. She also is very jealous. I have many girls that are friends. I guess that's not okay with her. I mean, one day I will admit it. She asked me what I was doing and I told her I was taking to my girl. She was very upset. It was a little to far.

The reason I haven't just stopped talking to her was because I can actually talk to her. I've told her things I've never told anyone. I just feel to comfortable with her. I can just talk to her for hours about anything.