"Ma , Can I Use Your Car Please?"
"For What Ashanti?" Mama Asked
"I Just Need To Run To The Store, Real Quick"
"Alright Don't Be Gone Too Long" Mama Replied.
"Okay Thank You Mama"
I Pick Up The Keys And Rush To The Car , I Head To The Drug Store , About 5 Minutes Later I Arrive At The Store. I Immediately Start To Search For Pregnancy Tests. Great, I Couldn't Find None. I Didn't Want To Ask A Clerk Where They Were, But I Needed To If I Wanted To Know If I Was Pregnant Or Not. I Spot This Older Lady.
"Excuse Me Ma'am , You Wouldn't Happen To Know Where The Pregnancy Tests Were?"
"Yes , Aisle 9" She Answered While Looking Me Up And Down.
"Thanks"
I Get To Aisle 9 And Look For The Most Accurate One, I've Seen First Response On TV So I Picked That One First , I Thought Maybe I Should Get More Than One So That I Can Be Sure , So I Also Picked Up Clear Blue And Some Other Brand. I Grab All 3 And Rushed To The Checkout Line So No One Could See Me. The Cashier Was Looking At Me Like I Stole Something.
"If You Don't Mind Me Asking , How Old Are You?" The Cashier Asked.
"Why Does It Matter To You?" I Asked With Attitude.
"I'm Sorry , Your Total Will Be $26.97."
I Hand The Cashier Two Twenty Dollar Bills And Wait Until She Handed My Change , She Was Counting So Slow. I Hop In The Car And Turn The Radio On To Ease My Mind On The Way Home. I Pull Into My Drive Way And Nervously Walk Into The Door.
My Mama Is Sitting On The Couch Watching Some Tyler Perry Movie. I'll Tell My Mama That I'm Back And Go Up The Stairs Into The Restroom And Shut The Door.
"Okay" I Said To Myself While Taking A Deep Breath.
I Pull Out The First Response Pregnancy Test Out First , After I Took The Test I Sat It On The Counter And Waited , Those Were The Longest Five Minutes Of My Life. Finally It Was Time, I Prepared Myself For The Worst While Walking To The Counter, I Pick Up The Test And Tears Instantly Started To Roll Down My Face As I Seen The "Your Pregnant" Sign. No No This Can't Be True. I Took The Other 2 Tests And They Came Back Positive Too.
I Started To Cry Harder. All Types Of Thoughts Flow Through My Mind. I Cant Keep This Baby I Have To Get Rid Of It. No What Am I Thinking? I Can't Kill My Baby Let Alone Give My Baby Away. How Am I Going To Tell My Mama? Oh My How Am I Going To Tell Avery, How Will He React? I'm So Scared. The Water Works Just Kept Coming And Coming.
"Ashanti?" My Mama Called As She Knocked On The Bathroom Door.
"Uh, Yeah Ma?" I Answer While Hiding The Pregnancy Tests Under The Sink.
"Are You Okay, I Thought I Heard You Crying?" Mama Asked
"Yeah I'm Fine, I Just Had Some Really Bad Cramps" I Lied.
"Okay Well Get Some Rest Baby I'm Gonna Run To Grandmas" Said Mama
"Tell Her I Said Hey"
A Few Moments Later I Heard The Front Door Being Shut And The Lock Being Twisted. I Leave Out The Bathroom To My Room And Sit At The Edge Of My Bed. Can't Believe I'm Really Pregnant. How Could I Be So Foolish? There's A Whole Life Inside Me. My Thoughts Were Soon Interrupted By My Phone Ringing, It Was Avery.
"Hello" I Answered.
"Hello, What's Wrong Baby You Don't Sound To Good?" Avery Asked In A Sympathetic Tone.
"I'm Just Not Feeling Well"
"Hope You Feel Better, Can I Come Over?" He Asked.
"No I'm Not Feeling So Well, Sorry I Love You"
"Love You Too" Avery Replied.
I Hung Up The Phone. Why Couldn't I Just Tell Him Whats Really Going On? I'm So Stupid. I Lay Back On My Bed Putting My Hands Over My Eyes Trying To Stop The Tears And Grasp Reality. After So Much Crying I Suddenly Drift To Sleep.
*Phone Rings* I Wake Up To Here My Ringtone That Im Starting To Get Tired Of.
"You Bring Out Feelings In Me I Never Show Nobody Has Made Me Feel This Way Before , I'm A Good Girl But I Wanna Be Bad For You , I Wanna Be Bad For You , I Wanna Be Bad Ad Ad I Wanna Be Bad For You"
I Look Up At My Screen And See That Its Avery Calling. Dang Why Does It Have To Be Him? I Am So Afraid To Speak To Him Right Now. Geeesh.
"Hello" I Answered.
"Hey Baby, You Feeling Better?" He Asked.
"I Guess So"
"Good, What You ...?"
"Avery I Have Something Important To Tell You" I Quickly Interrupted Him.
"What Is It?" He Asked.
"I'm Um I'm"
"Spit It Out , What Cat Got Your Tongue?" He Said
"I'm Um, Pregnant" I Said While Putting My Head Down In Shame.
The Phone Went Silent For A Few Seconds. I Didn't Know What To Think, I Thought He Didn't Want To Have Anything To Do With Me. My Eyes Started To Tear Up And My Heart Started Beating Rapidly Fast. Then Finally He Broke The Silence.
"What You Said?" He Asked.
"Please, Don't Make Me Repeat It" I Begged.
"Your Pregnant?" He Asked Shockingly
"Yes, I'm So Sorry." I Said Trying To Fight Tears.
"Don't Be Sorry, Can We Talk About This Later?" Avery Asked.
"Sure."
Sorry Its So Short , Tell Me What You Guts Think. How Do You Think Avery Is Going To Handle This? I Will Post 2 New Chapters Tomorrow
