My Love, Please Kill Me

[pt.18] The Damsel in Distress

Hello again, everyone! =) this is the answer to the question I mentioned in [pt.17]:

The opposite of the word 'love' is 'indifference.' If you hate someone, it means you still care/think about him/her, but when you feel indifferent about someone, you don't care about him/her at all and in your eyes that someone does not even exist.

Okay, let's head to the story..hope you enjoy it! ;D

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Part 18

"Life is a circle of misery"

~Chibi Maruko-chan's sister~

Quick recap: Mikael was imprisoned in the dungeon when Raphael told him the truth about his wife, the prophecy, and the plan. Meanwhile Lunalea who was having a black-out regained some of her memory of the past, and when she's conscious she found herself in a dark cave-like chamber. A human-like demon greeted her..and addressed her as his daughter.

[Lunalea POV]

The funny thing about the truth is.. when we don't have it within our hands, we search for it; but when it turns out to be something horrible and painful, we refuse to believe in it. Perhaps it's true that what we don't know won't hurt us. And that was exactly what I felt then.

When the demon with a sinister look in front of me said, "Welcome home, my daughter," I was too shocked for a few moments I couldn't say anything and just sat there looking at him transfixed. Then my first impulse was: to deny.

I narrowed my eyes and retorted, "First, this is not my home. Second, who are you to say that I'm your daughter?" I was surprised my voice sounded firm enough for a shocked person.

The demon laughed a harsh sickening laugh. "Oh, forgive me, where are my manner?" he sneered, "I am Vaughan, your father. Didn't your mother tell you? No? Well I'm not surprised. She's dead now, I reckon, served her right." At this I clenched my fist in anger, but the demon seemed to be oblivious and went on, "Because you're my daughter, of course this is your home." He stared at me with his red eyes, seemingly amused. "This is the home of every demon, the underworld." He stated.

I was again shocked, but I tried to conceal it. I stared at Vaughan and was feeling sick. 'No, I'm not this monster's daughter. I'm the exact replica of my mother; I look nothing like him!' my mind protested. But a small part of me, no matter how much I despised it, could see the resemblance of this demon with the man that had ever visited my mother. And my mother said the man was my father... I gritted my teeth and pushed aside that thought; It didn't make any difference who my father was. I didn't care. I turned my attention to the mention of this place. 'So this is it, the underworld..I'm here at last..though I can't remember how I get here in the first place..the demon side in me must have found the way in somehow.' I pondered.

"Thank you for the human and the horse, by the way." Said Vaughan, cutting my train of thoughts, "The children are feasting on them as we speak. Too bad the white one got away..it looks delicious." He smacked his lips.

I looked at him in utter horror. Was he talking about Arnvid and his horse? 'Of course he is!' I heard myself snapped. 'Oh My God..What have I done?!' I thought frantically. The notion of me bringing death to the hunter made my eyes burned in tears. It wasn't long before I felt my cheeks wet.

"Ah..don't cry. We left you some, you know. Here." Vaughan misunderstood my silence and my tears, then he threw something to my feet. I looked down and screamed in terror. It was Arnvid's head! His dead pale face fixed on a petrified expression (I couldn't even imagine what was the last thing he saw) and his dead eyes looked like a pair of black marbles. At once I felt extremely sick; my hand flew to cover my mouth and I looked up at the demon with a mixed feelings of anger, sadness, and disbelief.

"How.." I choked, "How could you-" I didn't finished my question, because I knew it's rhetorical; of course he could. Just by looking at him I knew he could do anything cruel.

"What, you don't want it, Zeva? That breaks daddy's heart, you know.." he pretended to look offended, but he's such an awful actor. He disgusted me. How dare he said I broke his heart when he didn't even have one in the first place!

"My name's Lunalea." I said sternly. At that moment I decided at once that I would discard my past name forever. Besides, the only person who had the right to address me with that name had passed away.

"Is that so.." Vaughan suddenly approached me and rendered his claw-like hand. I jumped backwards and instinctively wrapped my arms around my belly, protecting it. But the demon reached for my face and grabbed my chin, lifting it up. I flinched at how cold and rough his hand was. I tried to recoil, but his grisp was very firm his nails actually cut through my skin.

Vaughan stared straight into my eyes sharply, he seemed to be searching for something... someone.. "I see.." he hissed, his breath released a foul odour into the air, forcing me to hold my breath, "you still have the weak human side in you, don't you..?"

I shuddered at the way he was talking to me but at the same time time he wasn't. I took it he was trying to communicate with the demon inside me. "But don't worry," he grinned from ear to ear, "the longer you stay here, the stronger you will be. And soon your human side will disappear." Then he let go of my chin and retreated.

"I will not stay!" I shouted at him, and I did intend to escape one way or another. I had regained some of my memories and there's no reason I should stay here. "And you can't make me!"

"You have a duty here, you know." Replied Vaughan in a bored tone, "You are to lead the demon army and bring victory to the demons."

Now it's my turn to laugh at his ridiculous idea. Vaughan frowned in dislike. And my laugh stopped when I remembered what Haelock said that night, '..being a new leader' and '..Vaughan's daughter..' At that time I didn't understand what the snake-like demon meant..

"This is a sick joke." I muttered, again with the 'reject horrible truth' thing.

Vaughan didn't seem to hear me."I was pleased that you killed that stupid Haelock." He declared. "He had killed every other candidate for the new leader, which means you as the sole survivor earn the honor."

A part of me was pleased too knowing that Haelock's dead, but for most part I was revolted by the thought of me-scratched that-the demon me leading the demon army in a war against human. When Lord Uriel told me I'd be a threat to the kingdom, I didn't think it'd be a threat this big. What sickened me more was the fact if that happened, I would probably face Lord Mikael in the battlefield. Perhaps I wouldn't know what I would be doing, who I would be facing..and killing, but what about him? What would he feel to see me as an enemy? I didn't want him to feel betrayed..I didn't want him to hate me... But that was so selfish of me. He probably hated me already.

Wait. How could I be a demon leader if my human side was still in control of this body? 'I'll do everything to suppress the demon side. Lord Raphael will help me. We'll find a cure. Ha!' I thought smudgly.

When I looked up to tell Vaughan what I was thinking, the demon had already gone.

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Sorry there's no Mikael's POV. It seems to be longer than I expected, so I detach it from [pt.18].

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