The Cancer

The Wedding

Our wedding was only a few days away and I'm being told not to stress but that's really impossible. I mean who does he think he's talking to? I'm the queen of stress, I stress over everything. Well anyway I have everything planned out and stuff. Ugh why is time moving so slowly. I realized since I'm pregnant my dress will be bigger so that means if I have a girl than she probably won't be able to wear it. Then I realized I'm probably going to miss her wedding day, her graduation day, her prom, the birth of her first child, and everything else. That's too depressing to think about.

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Ok wedding day I can do this. It was probably funny seeing me give myself a pep talk in the mirror as soon as I woke up. I could tell it was funny because Joel was laughing at me. Today I wasn't t thinking about the cancer or the baby it was just about Joel and I today nothing else. The week before we went to get an ultrasound to see the gender of the baby, I didn't want to know so Joel got the cake made to show if it was a boy or a girl so I'm also nervous about that. "Honey it's time fir your makeup." My mom said as she rushed into my room. Then I knew it was game day. I was having Jennifer do my hair and makeup because she is pretty good at it. She wouldn't let me seen what she was doing so I was anxious the whole time until she turned me around, I looked stunning I couldn't thank her enough. It took forever for her to do my hair and makeup to the point of afterwards we had an hour before the ceremony. I got my dress on and then we had to make the finishing touches to everything. Finally it was time for the ceremony, my father was waiting at the door awaiting my arrival. As soon as he turned around and saw me he burst into tears. I have never seen my father cry like this. As I approached him he gave me a hug and told me I was just gorgeous. I heard the wedding March start and the doors open. I haven't seen the room yet and it was breathtaking. I started walking down the aisle with my father by my side crying. As I walked down the aisle I see Joel right in front of me covering his mouth and crying. That's the second time I've ever seen him cry. The first time being when we went to get my ultrasound for the first time. This was the day, the day I get married. Every girl's dream. We finally got to the front and my dad sat down. I stared into his beautiful eyes and smiled. As the priest started reading I began daydreaming. I snapped back to reality when he had us say how we will help each other througbn sickness a d health and all that stuff. I was nervous when it came to the vows because I was worried that mine are cheesy and suck but thank god he says them first. "You may now exchange vows." Said the priest.
"Jessica I first want to say you are the most wonderful and gorgeous woman I have ever met. OK now to my vows. Jessica I vow to care and love our child no matter the circumstances. I will love you throughout your life. Nothing will change that. You are the best thing that has happened to me and I will try !y hardest to make you life worth living."
I had to take a moment to breathe so I wouldn't burst into tears. Now it is my turn. "I will love you to the end of my life no matter what. I will respect you wishes and try hard to keep you satisfied with life as it is. As you told me once its not what others can do for you, its wjhat you can do for others."
Right the and there he looks at me with his wet bloodshot eyes and I burst into tears. They were tears of happiness. I've never been so happy. Then the priest stepped in and said, "you may now kiss the bride."
I didn't realize he said then because all I see is Joel leaning in to kiss me. Don't get ewrong it was a nice kiss but it would have been better if I wasn't daydreaming. Then he took my hand and said, "Run!"