N.E.W B.E.G.I.N.N.I.N.G.S(Book 4)

❤️Forty-Eight❤️

Sam

"Are you ready to forgive me?" I asked Jay as we was sitting in his car at sonic.

He looked over at me.

"Why should I ma? You know I love you, but I don't trust you."

I swear he struck a damn nerve.

"Let me tell your  ass something, I was fucking rape, you think I'm going to seat and tell you that shit? Not knowing if you going to go tell the fucking world. We only been talking for months Jay months! Not like I known you for awhile, but if you going to keep that over my head then it's best we move the fuck on from each other. Because you acting like a little ass boy instead of a grown ass man. So fuck you." I said getting out his car.

I begin walking, I don't know where I was going. All I know is I wanted to be far far away from him.

Tears fell down my face.

Why do my life have to be this way? My parents tried to kill me, then it backfired and now they are dead. Why couldn't they love me like they should? What did I do to deserve this heart ache I go through? All my life was nothing but pain pain pain. If it wasn't for my brother or sister only God knows where I would have end up.

Fuck Jay and this relationship.

I don't care no more. I grabbed my cellphone out my pocket, not paying attention to what I was doing.

"SAM!!!"

I looked up but it was too late a car hit me.

Well all I can say is I hope God don't spare my life. I don't want to be a burden to no one else in my family.

Darkness took over my body.
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"Ahhhhh I don't want to die!" I screamed over and over.

"Sam!!!!" I heard people calling my name.

I jumped up and saw Lil C, Sky, and Keenan over me. Lil C and Sky looked worried. Keenan well Keenan looked like Keenan.

With him being heartless and me having a heart. We get along good. Sometimes when he not in one of his moods .

"You alright!" Lil C asked me.

Tears filled my eyes as I nodded my head yes.

Keenan walked away.

My sister and brother stayed by my side.

"I hope you not thinking about killing yourself again. If you try that shit again. I putting your ass in a fool home, I'm not dealing with your fool ass then have to deal with Naenae fool ass. I be damn if y'all put me in a early grave." Lil C said.

He meant that too, him and Naenae been going through some things. I don't know what though. One min they arguing the next they fucking.

I don't understand them all I know is they love is strong to survive anything.

I just hope in the near future I'm able to be normal, because right now I don't feel normal at all.

Y'all be praying for me.

I'm gone! Outtie.

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Samantha Pov end!

Bye Sam it was nice telling your story you hold on baby girl. Things will get better for u. I hope. If they don't then umm yeah I'll be praying like u told us too!!

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