The Death of Me

chapter 4: in love..

this chapter is for my bff justin <3 ! enjoy

i run to my car and jump in and start the car and drive off with tears streaming down my face. the tears are black becuase im wearing mascara and eyeliner and they stream down my face. i get home and robbi is sitted on the porch. i get out of my car and go and talk to her "wheres mom" i say. "shes inside.. " i run through the door and find my mom she is on the couch and cyring from her sky blue eyes that look just like mine. "mom what happened?? " i ask worriedly. "your father cheated on me with our neighbor and we're getting a divorce now" she sniffled, ;" im so sorry elaine" my tears start coming again and i run outside again. i run to m ycar and jump in and drive off. i drive back to gerards house but on the way it starts raining very hard and i cant see. anoter car comes and in my lane and i swerve and hit a tree. the last hting i see before i slam my head into the wheel is my mothers crying face.

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i wake up and its all white. I look at my pale arm beside me and see a needle in my arm where blood is going in. I am on a white bed in a white dress in a white room and its white. i think that i am in a hospital. a dr comes in and looks at me "your better!" he says smiling with straight teeth. "im dr biersack and im here to help you .you hit a tree and have been in a coma for two days. they thought you were dead on the accident but then your heart started beating again and you lived" "Oh my god no" i say, my head hurting. "Oh my god yes!" he says smiling. he is cute with black hair and tattos. i would have a crush on him but i remember gerard and how much i like him. "wheres my mom ?" i ask. he frowned "she cant be here she is at work but you do have a visitor" "Oh who?" i ask. "the boy who found you when you had your accident" he says "ill go get him hes been here all night" and he walks out. i lay there and gerard walks in!! he looks sad and emo and like he hasnt sleep. "gerard hi!" i say and brush my long black hair out of my face. he looks at me and kind of smiles "hey elaine are you okay? " "yes" i say "how did you find me?" and he says "Mikey said you left so i went and looked for you and i found on the side of the road your head was bleeding badly" he starts crying "I thought you were dead so I called 911..just like i did when i found frank" i frown. "Gerard do you want to talk about frank?" his beautiful eyes start to feel with tears "...yes" he says. "come here" i say and pat the bed next to me. He crawls in the bed and i feel his body next to me and his body is cold like a dead body..a corpus. i wrap my pale arms aroudn him and hold him close. "Frnak and i were in love" he starts and his voice is full of depression. "We were dating for like a month and then i went ove r to his house and i found him on the bathroom floor. he was blood everywhere and it was suicide." i gasp "oh no" gerard cries some more and it drips onto me. i pet his hair and it was soft. "he was bullied because hes a boy whos dating another boy..the preps killed him.." "thats awful!' i say im not gay but i am a gay ally and i feel bad. "then what?" I ask him. He looks up at me with his big and pretty eyes and i still struck his hair so softly. "then i was sad but then i met you' and he leans in and closes his eyes and my heart beats crazy! I squeak a little and I kiss him and it's perfect and kind of wet but good. he pulls back and looks at me with his eyes and smiles and kisses me again.