The voices

Parting

So I know she lives right next door but the second she walked out my door my heart sank. It seemed like our kiss lasted forever, but when we parted I was cold. She said she's coming back soon. But that distance seems like so long. She's going out to the Bahamas to visit her parents for thanksgiving. They moved down there for retirement and it's really difficult for her to see them. I forgot all about Anni. But it seemed like the minute Megan was gone all the memories came rushing back to me. And I became crazy. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't eat. I was in a daze. I needed Megan to take my mind away from these things. Last night I couldn't take it and I took pills to help me sleep. When I was somewhat asleep I began to have the nightmares again. I could see her blood in between my fingers, her black and blue pale skin. Her hair. And her eyes. Oh my gosh. They seemed to just scream to me. I woke in a cold sweat and I was out of breath. " I need to get her. Or these memories won't fade" I kept telling myself. I tried to call Megan but she didn't answer. She must still be in the air. I went to the kitchen and started making myself a small soup for tomorrow. There will be plenty of left overs. It's not like I have to share it with anyone. Once that's done I make myself a sandwich and head to bed. I lay in the dark with my hands folded over my chest and just stare into the darkness. I get annoyed with my depression and thoughts of Anni and turn on tv. Every show seemed to remind me of Megan. I can't believe I could miss someone this much. I didn't know it was even humanly possible. Hours passed and I kept checking my phone to see if Megan happened to call me and I missed it. Still nothing. I closed my eyes and tried got tell myself to sleep but it was useless. I got up and went to the bathroom and I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I was a wreck. I haven't shaved. My hair is a mess. My eyes were swollen and slightly red from sleep deprivation. I heard my phone going of so I ran back into y room and picked it up. It was Megan
" hello? " I said a little to eagerly
" hey. I made it here. Everything's ok. How are you?"  Her voice was like an angel. How could I lie to her? I'm not sure how I did it but I did
" oh yeah. Things are holding up here. I miss you babe " at least it wasn't a full lie. Because I miss her more than anything in this world.
" awe I miss you too babe. Il be home before you know it. It's only 2 days." She's trying to make me feel better. She's so cute.
" your right. Thank you Megan. Your probably exsauhsted. You should get some rest. I love you"
" yeah your right. Even when I'm not around you can still read me. I love you to Jackson. It's amazing to hear your voice. I do miss you a lot. Get some rest"
" thank you Megan. I needed to hear that. I love you. Goodnight my love " I pretend to kiss her through the phone and she giggles and we hang up.
I get comfortable under the covers and I didn't sleep great. But I actually slept more than I have sense the other day when she left. It's been one day. And I'm already driven insane by her not being here. But I drifted in and out of sleep. I drempt of her tonight. And it was amazing.