The voices

Dreams

That night was the first night I was able to dream. I drempt of us being happy. Growing old. Her in a dress me in my tux. Me trying not to cry as I see her walking down the aisle. Failing and crying anyway. Kissing her under the stars. Making love. Having kids. Coming home from work every night. Watching movies. Having fun. Making dinner. Getting in very few fights. But when we do she always wins. We cry when we realize our baby's are ground up. We still have our moments of youth and freedom. We have parties just for two. We send the kids off to her parents house in the Bahamas. We make love a little more often than not. But not much. We have food fights and cuddles. When are kids get back were stressed and crazy but we always come back to eachother. No matter what we always came back to eachother. We sob when we send our kids to college and celebrate when they come home for the holidays. She aged... But she was still so beautiful. Still the most beautiful woman I've ever met. We never died in my dream. But I know that when we do it will be together. Hand in hand. I woke up and realized I had cried. It all felt so real how could I have felt so much in only a few hours. I realized i must have rolled around a lot because when I woke up the bathroom door was open and the light was on. I rolled over and it was 1:30 in the morning. I quietly got out of bed and crept into the bathroom. She was bent over the sink splashing water on her face. I grabbed her I my arms and spun her around. She squealed and whined for me to our her down. I laugh and do as she says
" you scared the living crap outta me babe. Ugh" she whines. She still so cute.
" I'm sorry baby. I just realized I was cold and that meant you weren't there. Are you ok?" Shes looking in the mirror again and I brush her hair off her shoulder and kiss her up her neck. She shifts away from me.
" baby what's wrong. " I'm instantly afraid I've done something.
" nothing I'm sorry. Come here" she reaches her arms out to hug me and I slowly come closer.
"baby what happened" I whisper into her neck
" I had a night mare. That you left and when I woke up your arms weren't around me like usual.... I knew it was nothing but... I don't know " she trailed off
" oh baby.... I'm right here. I am never. Ever leaving your side. I love you more than I ever thought possible--" she cuts me off by kissing me.
" thank you " she leapts into my arms and I carry her back to bed. Holding her so tightly. Never letting go.