GOING NATIONAL ~~~ Brendon Urie

five

"I'll tell you later." He offers as he stands up to grab our food.

~~~

We eat in a friendly silence, occasionally sharing smiles that make my heart flutter.

When my burger is gone, I wipe my mouth with a brown napkin and take a sip of my Dr. Pepper. Brendon finishes quickly after, and gets up to throw out our trash.

When he returns to the table he has a serious look on his face. "Can we just stay and talk, for a bit?"

"Sure thing. What's on your mind, Bren?"

"Well um, again, about earlier..." He bites his lip. "I felt something." I freeze. What?

"We kissed?" I mumble at the tables

"You say that as if it's a question."

"I... I had a daydream that we kissed earlier... I... I was scared to believe it was real."

"It was very real. And I felt something." He smiles a knowing smile and leans over the table a bit.

"No, no, Brendon, you can't..." my voice wavers. "You have Sarah."

"You made me feel something today that I've never felt before, Elliot. I've been thinking about this for a while. I've been thinking about you. I've been thinking, maybe I do feel the same way about you. And I'm sorry it took me so long to act on it. But if that kiss was anything, it wasn't pity. I think... I love you, Elliot.

And I know you don't want our friendship to be ruined, and I know you're scared about Sarah. I promise I will sort everything out. For you, Elliot. I'll do it for you."

I would be jumping for joy if it weren't for the fact that Brendon and Sarah are still together.

"Brendon, I love you too. And you know you already have my heart. But if you want to be this part of my life, you'll fix your relationship with Sarah. That's all I ask. I don't want to be 'the whore that Brendon cheated on Sarah with.' I want to be yours."

"I promise, I'll make this better. I'll figure it out." He smiles hopefully at me. "So I guess this means I can't kiss you again until we're actually together, huh?"

"I guess it does."

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is this going too fast? I'm sorry.

-Hann