I wake up from my bed and go to the bathroom to fix my bed head.
''Mornin' Em!" Replies Aaron.
"Hey." I say nonchalantly.
"How are you doing?" he says cautiously, not to do anything to set me off.
Lately, I can just break down in the middle of a conversation. Cry on the floor and not notice anybody in the world. Its like my own private remedy. It helps me cope on what's not there. As I grab a bowl from the cabinet I silently sing one of the most meaningful lyrics in my life, "St. Jimmy died today. He blew his brains out in the bay. In his own state of mind, like NY own private suicide." (lyrics by green day) I feel like I shouldn't be alive. But I will NOT go down the same way my mom did. I am stronger than her.
"I've been better. What are your plans for today?" I say looking down.
"Well me and Amber are going to a baseball game. You can come if you want." he says putting the plates in the sink. Amber is Aaron's girlfriend. She is super pretty and nice. I approve of her.
"I'm go--" I am interrupted because Aaron grabs my wrists and gives me the most puppy dog look and looked me deep in the eyes.
"Did you cut yourself?" he asks.
I don't even hear him I just go back to that moment, that day...
* flashback *
-Text conversation-
Trey- Hey wanna come over?
Emily- Sure be over in 10
Trey- See you there! love you babe.
- text conversation ends-
I walk up to Trey's door and knock. I hear movement and he opens the door, welcomes me in and kisses my forehead.
"Hey babe. Wanna go upstairs and play a video game." He says and smiles at me.
"Sure." I said and smile. We go up the stairs and at the top he gives me a long passionate kiss. Nothing more nothing less. He opens the door and I walk in and admire his room. Transformers posters to Country bands. We play Call Of Duty on his Xbox. He play for an hour and then we take a break. I get a text from my neighbor, Aiden.
Aiden- Hey, What's up?
Emily- Nothing, just at Trey's house. Hbu?
"Who you texting?" Trey said peeking over my shoulder.
"Just my Neighbor."
He snatches my phone from my hand and reads my texts. He then explores my photos.
"Who the freak is this loser?" Trey screams. It's a picture of my ex in my photo gallery. He took it himself. I just never had the time to erase it.
"That... that's just my ex. He took it I swear! I forgot to erase it! "
"Sure that's obvious! I know you still like him. You miss him! You are cheating on me!"
He runs up to me and slaps me on the face. Tears slowly run down my cheeks, he wipes them off like it was nothing.
"Look I'm sorry." he says and touches my cheek. I grab my phone and delete the picture and show him. He smiles at me and kisses me and notices that I wince. He calls me over and I shake my head. "Leave me alone please."
"No! I said come here now you stupid retard."
"No please."
He rushes up to me digs his nails into my wrists, and leaves bloody scratches. I cry and run out of there as fast as I can. That day I never looked at him again the same way. He sent me the best apology text ever. I gave him a second Chance.
*flashback ends *
"Emily? Emily? what happened? Did you or did you not slit your wrists?"
I take a big sigh. I could never tell anyone. Its too big to even go back to. But I do everyday. "Yes, yes I did. Bye." I say and grab my book bag and head to Aiden's.
A/N: Hey! Tell me what you think!!
